at home

wake up
get dressed
go to school
walk the halls in a daze
come home
do house work
make dinner
help my brother with homework
do homework(maybe)
eat dinner
clean the kitchen
take a bath...

ahhh a bath,
the one place i can be me
and i can cry
but no one knows i do
i sit in the steamy water
and dream

dream of a better life
one with out pain
one with a meaning
i dream i am happy
i have friends
i have a family that loves me
i get good grades
and am headed for college

im brought back to reality
by cold bath water
and a shrill cry of my name
my brother...
if only mom was home
but no, i am the mother in this house
she has her own life so i do everything

the cooking
the cleaning
the shopping
the housework
pay the bills
balence the check book
help my brother with homework

another shrill cry of my name
ugh i get up and get dressed
i help my brother write a paper
write a paper; english
im failing english
im failing all my classes

im smart
but i cant do the work
i have to help out at home
at home where i am the mother
the sister
the toutor
the cook
the maid
the only one who cares