One.Last.Time

The point before the breaking point

I'm sorry I'm not everything you sought me to be

And none of it was your fault it was all me

We could've been together and no matter the weather

And now I'm sitting here being forced to forget her

I've had too much and I've been alone too long

And it seems that I can't forget you more and more with every song

I stay up every night praying that you'll be mine

And that I can always have someone there for me no matter the time

I'm sorry for everything I did I want to have you again

I'm tired of it just being me my notebook and my pen

So I look up to the lord and I say what do I do?

When all I do is drive for myself and all I think about is you

All I need is my life back lord that's all that I ask

And I'll never again ask for your extensive help on a task

I need this girl in my life you don't even know

Because there is no telling how this next night will go

The ring of her voice still sings in my mind

The sweet tone of her voice when she speaks to me at times

And the beautiful blond hair

And I didn't even care

About a thing because I had my girl

And she mattered to me more then the world

This is the last poem I write forever because this is my last cry for help

I tried over and over again and all I hear is the echo from my yelp

She is no longer there to listen

She is no longer there for me

Because I pushed her away and told her I needed to be free

That was the biggest mistake and I can make it right for good

But all she thinks is that it isn't a good thing that she should

Be doing right now and I can't take another day

I'm sorry I had to end up all this way

I let this s**t eat away at me and look where I am?

I got all this s**t to deal with and no f*****g plan

And the worst thing imaginable in my life is here and what do I do?

When you think I should just quit and get over you

I promised I would never give up and I would never leave

But let me get that one chance and I'm saying please

This is coming from the depts of my heart

I need to try ONE more time and I'll treat it like from the start

Sadly we think that all high-school relationships are impossible

But if you give the chance to show you you'll see is plausible

I cringe at the thought of another man holding you and kissing you

So please let me have this one last dance

Let me have this last chance

To show you my love is crazy unconditional and we can get along

Because I'm done feeling like this and we can have what we had all along

F**k what he said about high school not working

F**k all these girls and f**k all this twerking

I need you I need us I need it all

Because as I wrote this poem my life continues to fall

Into the deepest hole and last stand for my life

And I won't even speak about you being my wife

I just need you now and I need you here

Because I don't think I'm going to make it to the end of the year

Matter a fact probably to the end of this poem

Because right after this I'm going to go and show em'

What making the biggest mistake does to you

When the sunshine in your life turns away from you

Because you decided to block out the light

And I thought things were going to be all right

F**k I'm lost f**k I'm going to be gone

So I'm going to let you know now I'm sorry I made you feel like a pawn

I'm sorry for what I did and I hope you can forgive

Because this life isn't something that I want to live

So save me, save me from all of this

I promise you that there isn't anything in life that you'll miss

Because I know my love made you feel amazing

And I know the stress made it feel crazing

But please give me a chance

Because its all right here this is my last stance.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[emme33]

Really long but totally worth it! My favourite lines are: "I let this s**t eat away at me and look where I am?

I got all this s**t to deal with and no f*****g plan", really makes the piece feel genuine and sincere. Great job! :))))