Anxiety

Ever want something back so much its worth more than life itself?

High off the words of tomorrow

 

I'm going to hydrate your mind with my words of sorrow

 

This is the sanctuary where I condemn my pen

 

This is where my tears get turned into ink and then

 

I inject my tears into my pen and back into my veins

 

So I can relive the highs and drown out my lows

 

But all I'm doing is killing brain cells that’s how it goes

 

I cannot count how many times I couldn’t sleep

 

Because all I did was think of you instead of count sheep

 

Its over now what can I do?

 

 But when I stroked your face I thought about a future

 

When he strokes your face he thinks about getting behind you

 

When I kiss those lips I feel your soul

 

When he kisses you he feels up your body

 

When I ran my hands through your hair it was to make you feel relaxed

 

But he runs his hand through your hair to pull it back

 

When I text you I tell you how much I love you over and over and over again

 

When he does he tells you how bad he wants to be alone

 

On Friday nights its Netflix and fall asleep together

 

But with him its Netflix and chill

 

When you fall asleep on me I rub your head just how you like it

 

He just lays there and wishes your face was stuck to his

 

I tell my friends how much I love you

He tells his friends how much he f***s you

 

If you are truly happier without me then I cant complain

 

I’ll have to get over the fact that it’s all over for me

 

But ill always know forever that I was the one for you

 

That I was the man that could treat you the best

 

No man can make her feel so special the way I did

 

But if you do change your mind, you know where ill be

 

Writing poems until 2

 

So that I can be with you

 

Author's Note

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