did i go astray?

they told me I've gone astray

but when have i not?

i may seem all knotted and frayed

but when am i not?

ticking of the clock, seasons changing, 

days getting shorter, nights longer

the air getting salty and melancholic, and how it nipped at my skin

all i ever desired was... winter shouldn't come this time soon

i didn't had it in myself to deal with all this

then why did i had to see the same damn film again?

characters changed, I'm still the main

vaguely remember shutting down sadness

forcing a smile, a mask to hide the storm within

it still creeped in like a cold, barren wind, whispering of lost hopes

all those paragraphs and words should have meant more

they should have come with due actions from you

but I'm left waiting for the bus, which wasn't supposed to come

time had run out, while i was dwelling in a daze at the stop

you never really felt sorry to see me in that state, did you?

i know i should have been more strong

but was it really my fault that i would care?

shouldn't everyone care when spring stayed for two days?

after coming 2 years late...

Reviews

[NelliKong]

Very dark, but beautifully written. Pain and beauty tend to go hand and hand. I love how you were vulnerable.

[Mk.t.g]

thanku for reading!!

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

a strong work. very honest and full of darkness. i have been through some very s****y things and so these words resonate in a place very deep.

[Mk.t.g]

thanku for reading, and i hope everything gets better for you at your end!

[Fabian G. Franklin]

We have all gone astray like lost lambs wandering our own paths seeking some good shepherd to rescue us from our plight. But the good shepherd will always leave the flock to find even that one little lamb that is lost. It is not love that hurts but misplaced faith; believing in something that fails or falls short of our expectations. What is left to us then but to love without expectation and to hope that in giving we shall not lose our reward. Because giving is always a greater reward than receiving. May the best blessings of the season be yours. F.

[Mk.t.g]

thanku for such a nice review, i really appreciate it!

[Pete]

quite intense. sure sounds like he did. caring deserves no blame but we open ourselves up to hurt when we do. reminds me of a quote by thoreau, "“Not till we are lost, in other words not till we have lost the world, do we begin to find ourselves, and realize where we are and the infinite extent of our relations.”

[Mk.t.g]

thanks for coming by, pete!