SorryA Poem by CharlotteApologizes - Hmmm this seems to be becoming a trend, I must f**k things up even more than I think I do.I feel like i'm always doing this, apologizing That I have a tenancy to f**k things up Except for around certain people, that's why I stick with this people I'm sorry that i'm making excuses I don't want to be And I know that's hard to believe, trust me I do I know that i'm a mess And I know that's another excuse F**k Im sorry Look, i'm just going to spill it out This Isn't going to make sense And I'm going to sound like i'm making excuses And i'm sorry for that I'm sorry for the mess your about to hear Just know that I truly mean everything i'm saying here I thought you hated me And if i'm being truly honest I still kinda do You say were friends, and I want to be But I hear from other people that you hate me Your friends hate me So why wouldn't you But i'm writing this and I just keep coming back to You cared enough to call the cops… so you couldn't hate me, could you? And the truth is I really just don't know I'm sorry you feel isolated I avoid talking to you because you intimidate me SO MUCH I can't even tell you You have your f*****g s**t together like umm what.. HOW?!?! Or if you dont, it really looks like you do Im sorry I didn't know you wanted to understand Last time I tried to explain it you just told me to shut up I thought you didn't care Or when I ask you some random question And you look at me rolling your eyes like WTF hazel I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO I don't know how to fix this I don't have a simple solution I wish I did But, sadly I don't Would you rather sit in the middle? Because please, do I'm not rude I won't talk over you, i'll just talk to you I'm so bad at life AAAAAAAA This is all my fault Whenever you and Claudia are talking and I say something You look so mad I should have just taken the hint You don't want me there So, if you read this and tell me you don't want me to sit with you guys I won't F**k I'm so bendable and so plastic Everyone's anxiety manifests itself in different ways and this is one of mine I act so independent and carefree But that's because you only ever see with people that I feel like myself around And there are very few of those Example: Lisa, I LOVE HER And I feel like myself around her - most of the time But in that, I am the submissive one I am so terribly sorry for this pain FUCKKKKKKKK Please, can we talk about this? Can I give you a hug the second I see you tomorrow because I feel so bad PLease You asked me today how long the period was And I told you I dIdn'T KnoW WhY iF i HAd I would have tried to fix it then I'm sorry for everything above I'm sorry thee all sound like excuses I'm sorry I made you feel this way I'm sorry I didn't realize I'm sorry really truly IM SORRY © 2018 CharlotteAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorCharlotteSouth Burlington, VTAboutToday, my forest is dark The trees are falling And the butterflys wing are broken but I'm hoping for a tomorrow where The sun is shining and The birds are singing more..Writing
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