Good on a College ApplicationA Poem by Charlotte.....................................................
"It looks Good on a College Application" I heard that phrase so many times today
I'm only 14, why do you even care yet? Were being prepared for real life So, does that mean this is fake? Not life, just a free trial? Getting an education is a competition I didn't agree to enter I was blindsided Is there an exit button? Or, maybe even a start over? That could be nice Wipe it all clean Too just try again Make different Mistakes Because I used to think in normal ways to count the days on a calendar, Including every one But now I count in Test dates In project due dates in anything related in school In time limits instead of days I don't know which is heavier my backpack or my eyelids I'm sleep deprived and losing weight I don't know which is worse anymore The anger at myself for failing or the sadness of everybody else I just want to go home and sleep I want to let my self be okay To eat a solid meal for the first time in weeks but I cant and not because you think Not because I'm at school I would leave if I really wanted to I cant because I physically cant I want to go do all of those things I really do I want to heal, to get better I literally can't force myself to move in that way because it's getting bad again I'm losing more and more sleep I'm eating less and less I'm more disconnected from the world than ever I haven't stopped shaking in days I don't know what to do But this isn't about loving life It's about living until you do I'm not asking you to see the hope in your darkest hours I'm asking you to give it another chance even if it takes 10,000 more one more chances until your, happy and excited about tomorrow those 10,000 days will be worth it If you can only just get there force yourself out of bed every morning until you wake up thinking you can't wait to get up
© 2018 CharlotteAuthor's Note
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Added on May 21, 2018 Last Updated on May 22, 2018 Author |