Haunting Hymns

A Poem by NelliKong

These hymns run through my mind often… I wish I could just put them in a coffin… they often just make me mad with rage… but if they just go away maybe I’ll be happy for the rest of my days.

I always just been off key… can’t seem to find the beat… really I don’t think I can take the heat, close to defeat… I barely have any grip left on the soles of my feet, because my soul is departing from underneath. There’s no place for me in this choir, when I sing it’s never in the correct pitch… but all that happens is the other choir members yelling blasphemy and leave me in a ditch.

Hymns forever haunting me, wanting me to sing along… there hasn’t been a lyric that sticks out to me and makes me feel like I belong… so I pretend to be “strong”… but like always I’m blamed for being wrong… so I’m stuck singing the same ole song.

© 2023 NelliKong

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Kane Hagwood

I completely get the feeling of not quite being in tune with everybody else. That sensation of not belonging is sadly more familiar than most people realize. If we realized how many folks wear masks, we might just be nicer as a collective. There's this sense of pain, yet a longing hope for SOMETHING to be out there to feel aligned with.

Have you ever heard of a self fulfilling prophesy? Something we say to ourselves so often, that it happens? It may come across as a silly concept, which is understandable. But it is something to consider. Our subconscious can do some pretty wild things if we repeat something enough.

Often in the pursuit of expressing the pain that we're in, our frame of mind tends to keep us in that loop of hurt. How does the saying go? The man who says he can and the man who says he can't are both right? Something along those lines.

Either way, this is a lovely poem that expresses an honest emotion and a strong will. Some understandable bitterness too. Take what I say with a grain of salt, as always. Thank you for sharing this :)