Boats Against the Current

The boat in this ocean I haven’t been able to rock, I can’t seem to work the middle, I even tried to change into a new position, only to get pulled in even more by this current. Unlike the Aaliyah song, I’ve been trying to coast through this storm, but haven’t been able to reach the shoreline. 

It’s been getting difficult trying to swim against the current, splashing around has turned into growing, gasping for breath that I don’t have… and not knowing how much longer I can last. These continuous waves keep crashing down on me, one after the other… but by the time I would reach the sore my body and soul won’t be recovered. The waves themselves are individual waterfalls… I tried to stick to the rivers and lakes that I’m used to, but lately I haven been receiving any TLC… but lately this ocean has taken over me and won’t let me loose. Waterfalls form in my eyes daily and it’s been slowly driving me crazy… just asking for the life of me please just take me.

I’m not sure if I can row this boat anymore, in a stream it’s easy but in an ocean the currents are just way too strong and it gets hard to hold on. Nothing has been merry lately and oh now I wish this was just a dream… maybe one day the ocean will dump me off into an uneventful stream.