Healing

Why does healing have to hurt?

Its suppose to make you feel better but I feel worse

Words I write to express my pain

But now I will use it as a superpower that I will gain.

All of my days I try to maintain 

Even to those that use my name in vain

This mountain Im climbing to reach the peak 

But I'll keep trying even when I feel weak.

I can feel the strong winds of doubt,fear and uncertainty to blow me away from my fullest potential, but I will give my all to withstand this forecast with just a pencil.

Writing will become my escape when I'm in the dark

Writing will help me piece myself back together when I fall apart

I'm the author and illustrator of my life

Even though somedays cut my spirits like a knife

When i reach the top of this mountain is the day i can't wait to come

At that point I will be ok with all the wars I never won

At the top I will hold the flag that represents victory 

Even though im an individual that tends to be a walking contradictory 

To get to that flag that I see in the distance will require all my blood,sweat and tears

When you let things fester for so long you end up needing to become a plumber and fix a lot of repairs. 

I want to emerge from this dark hole

Even though I'm scared of what's on the other side and untold

This journey won't be easy but will soon push start

And to remind myself Im enough from the bottom of my heart

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Me too, my friend.
"I want to emerge from this dark hole
Even though I'm scared of what's on the other side and untold
This journey won't be easy but will soon push start
And to remind myself Im enough from the bottom of my heart"
The above lines are strong and we must do. Thank you for sharing your worthwhile and amazing thoughts.
Coyote

[NelliKong]

Thank you Coyote for the comment; I really appreciate it

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome my friend.

[Ayvid N]

A great thought process and pep talk to motivate oneself. Mountain climbing is quite a feat and only tough people can do it, more than anything one needs a resolve. It can be hard, the last few legs as the legs are giving way and the breath gets scantier. And that is where one's will power comes in. When climbing a mountain, it is each one for themselves and no one can help you up except yourself so one must have great strength and great determination. Life is something like that too. We have to climb our own hills and fight our own wars. When the history flag is hoisted at the mountain to or in life it is seldom without the struggle , the sweat and the painstaking climb. So, if like you so wisely said here, you keep reminding yourself, then that is half the battle won.

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment

[neurostar burns]

Hi!

I happen to see indication that you had tabbed my spot. New poem? Healing?
I find through exploration of certain methodologies, perhaps the quickest way to get
reiief from the trials is to put the issues to the status of passed to the past. If they are not
ongoing, then no need to burden oneself further with them. Open your mind for the next and
not dwell on what is passed. I find this faster-but I explored and not taken for granted the current
approaches, like the gal who got over sex inhibition even thru a religious counsel.

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment

[neurostar burns]

Hi!

I happen to see indication that you had tabbed my spot. New poem? Healing?
I find through exploration of certain methodologies, perhaps the quickest way to get
reiief from the trials is to put the issues to the status of passed to the past. If they are not
ongoing, then no need to burden oneself further with them. Open your mind for the next and
not dwell on what is passed. I find this faster-but I explored and not taken for granted the current
approaches, like the gal who got over sex inhibition even thru a religious counsel.

[Ioana Mihai]

A beautiful poem, I could feel every line and see my journey too. As we never give up, we suffer, we cry, we heal and hurt again and again a cycle through life, we get up and continue the fight until we reach the light, dreams, peace and sense of achievement that comes with the victory!
Best wishes in your journey and purpose :)

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment it means a lot

[Shelley Warner]

Your poem describes the turmoil of healing from life's traumas. Some of my healing has come in surprising and unexpected ways. I had a problem enjoying sex for so many years. I thought it was connected with a childhood trauma but it was also religious shaming. Incredibly, it was a discussion group in a progressive church that changed that for me. I'm in a good place in my life right now.

[NelliKong]

Happy that you’re in a better place mentally 👏

[Chris Shaw]

Really liked the flow of this poem and the journey you are on to heal. It doesn’t come easy. It is like climbing a mountain, but what a view when you reach the summit. Enjoyed the read. Thank you.

Chris

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment Chris.

[Destinyxi]

Ahh I love poems that rhyme! This is awesome. Well written and flows perfectly. I envy you. I was never able to write poems that rhyme 😅

[NelliKong]

Thank you. This is the only poem I have that rhymes. The rest are more of a free verse.

[Gideon X. A. Elson]

"Some days cut my spirits like a knife" loved that line.. this one's going to stick with with me friend... well done..

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment Gideon I appreciate the feedback.

[Chris]

Good questions, and observations. Maintaining positivity in the presence of doubt is hard.

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the feedback Chris

[Aura]

Beautifully written! You describe so eloquently and honestly, the trials of learning to heal. Why does healing hurt to begin with? Perhaps its the first step of the healing process, figuring out that you want to heal, from what? That makes us emotional because thats when we learn that something was not right in our lives. It hurts in the beginning because we acknowledge the sadness that lurks within us and that's when we learn how to truly heal, by perhaps talking to a therapist, a friend, or learning a new skill or perhaps writing down our feelings with a good old pencil, pen and paper. It is quite satisfying to write, but so is typing! I enjoyed reading this piece! Thank you for sharing.

[NelliKong]

Thank you for the comment I appreciate the feedback

[Aura]

My pleasure!