The Life Within

Here I am laying in bed..
Million of thoughts are running through my mind
as the night sleeps..
I feel the life thats inside of me...

It doesnt want to be taken for anyone else's mistakes..
reasons,faults,guilt,anger...

Nor its unresponsible positions....

So it fights...knowing that it will have to die
Putting me thru every possible pain,emotion,and mental state..
that you could ever experience..

surrounded by an un...cure...able...disease..

As these tears run down my face hoping for the sense of
love,care,comfort,peace, and life that it needs ...
not yet alone...the care that I need..
you cant see...
the life inside of me....
all u see is self..
not even the blessing..nor me..

just disgust.

The disowned neglect of me ...
and the life inside of me..
lies still for a while..

silence ..no movement.. just peace..

Its ironic u see...i laugh in amazement....

of what love,

you knew you had seen...

not in me, but for another...

yet,...

i would still forgive you and let you be 

apart of me..

 

I know u care for me in the mind and the heart...
but your tainted by the actions that were taken..

 

You feel bound, locked, in chains...

..which shows me...
your disgusted by me,the life in me..

Yet i was supose to be your best friend...

You loved me ....

 

My strength has to be my guiding factor
of the woman, and mother I have to be...
Another chapter..

I  finally see...

 

 

Sca'v