The Double Life

During my childhood I experienced a lot of things.....

not forced...

but it was a choice based on my own curosity...

This is my story...

Me and my friend were watching tv, while both of our parents were at work

...left alone ...

we decided to explore ..

 

     As we flipped through the channels of different tv stations,

We came across one that struck our attention....

What we had witnessed was something disgusting, but yet seemed pleasurable

As we sat there still staring at the screen asking each other questions, of what, why, and how come...

My friend got the idea of physically trying what we witnessed ...

"Maybe we will be able to understand, what is going on if we do it"  my friend replied..

I second guessed myself with the idea, but I let curiosity take over me..

As we touched eached other, I began to feel things that i had never felt before....

 

 My heart was rapidly beating,

My body temperature was rising from the nervousness of what we were about to do.

We kissed... then we rubbed... the tension started to rise ...

within minutes, our clothes were on the floor ...

Both of our bodies shakin with such a strange sensational feeling..

We had successfully acted out what was being shown...

The message was clearly understood without words...

 

As time passed, this new thing hat we had discovered secretly ,

Became our lust...

Everytime we had seen each other, it was the first thing that was on our minds...

No hellos, no words, no nothing, just this new thing that we had discovered...

Both of us became addicts...

.....anticipating every moment , touch, kiss, or opportunity that we could get....

just to satisfy our pleasure....

 

While we were away from each other,

, we taught ourselves how to please one another.....

Untll one day, my lust became my guilt...

I knew it was wrong ...

Should I say anything, what will happen to me or my friend..

What will our parents think of us..

My guilty heart spoke....

Mom .....Dad.. I am having sex with my friend...

Only 8 years old,....

they look at me with a puzzled face...

They ask: "What friend"...

I say my only friend...

My parents immediately stare at me in disgust...

Not only because of the act, but of the gender...

From that moment on, i was never allowed to be around my own gender,

nor the opposite..

From that moment on i began to live

the double life....

 

 

Sca'v