Alone

i have an ache on my left side,

my stomache is a permanent knot.

there's a pain in my head that bites,

and i seem to be crying alot.

 

i toss and turn instead of sleep,

uncomfortable throughout the day.

food is like cardboard and leather,

i forget things i want to say.

 

i get anxious and i overreact,

my kids look at me and frown.

i get so angry and restless,

no comfort when i am down.

 

i think towards the end of my life,

my only way to ultimately flee.

then i fight through the darkness,

i push myself on forcefully.

 

my motivation has diminished,

i only want to stay at home.

i'd like to have a social life.

but i am always happy alone;

 

alone i cannot be judged,

alone i can do as i please.

alone as i have always felt,

alone out here to freeze.

 

21-05-2008

jeneane fay