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Graceful is the silhouette of the shadow dancing in the night,
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Trying so kindly to help me shine my light,
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Gently grasping the misery and blowing it away,
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Into the air, it is released with one big sigh,
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Dear shadow,
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Take these eyes; make them no longer cry,
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Disable my heart,
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Cut off its connections and set it free,
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Let it take its place upon the top of the heap,
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May it lye there and never leap,
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Take this life and suck it straight out,
May my soul no longer weep,
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Make it fall into the deepest sleep,
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Take these hands and tie them tightly,
Cut off the circulation,
And not just slightly,
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Let the cutting red marks remind,
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Burning into the mind a never-ending rewind,
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Take this body and turn it numb; numb to feeling,
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Let rise the rotten stench of fragile skin peeling,
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I scream,
I scratch,
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I’m trapped; always trapped,
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The truth is there is no end,
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Only a beginning; a beginning to another feeble end,
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Strewn out on the sidewalk,
I stare into the sun,
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I ask myself, My God what have I done?
As grief sears into the clouds; creating holes in the fluffy white innocence,
I shudder; with the pain beginning to all make sense;
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As the light shines into the icy blue eyes; turning them a dull shade of gray,
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They dilate; soaking in the rays,
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You see, this is no phase,
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The memories they stay,
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The haunting remains.
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