Sleepless nights, rendered into
bland, blank, baseless days
inside, emotions welling
manifesting into nightmarish relief
homework done in sleep
beads of sweat, mixing with
blood filled tears; waste of labor
nauseated nights
heart wrenched gut
no gurgle of mind's brilliance
like no other feeling
like betrothal to Fear himself
not doing insanity, claiming
it's too crazy; wanting perfection
getting attention, wishing freedom,
self-depriving rituals
slipping farther from light's
dark grasp. knowing nothing but
wrenched feelings-
waiting for blissful relief.