Fear

Something I wrote that gives some insight on some of my struggles with sexuality

I keep pushing myself into something I have no desire for,

In fact, it sickens me when I try to tell myself it is okay,

When in fact it is not, for it is not who I am at all.

With my constant internal thoughts washing through like a tidal wave in my mind,

Leads to acting solely out of loneliness, fear, and wanting validation.

But really this is not who I am,

This is not who I ever want to be.

I know better than to put myself through this

And I want to value my identity as what it should be worth.