change is good

recently i got into a relationship with my ex with whom i've that a 6 year on and off experience, no i don't believe in second chances but i do believe in god and that he has reason for this person always being aprt of my life. latey we've been talking about ones spiritual being and how to be humble. to me being humble is a gift you recieve after becoming one with yourself and all that is around you, ater becoming one with the earth and all that is the earth and i've learnt to accept life as it comes. i'm not one to pln a future, yes i would love to get married and have a family of my own one day but till then i'm pleased with my life. i do not have money of my own to spend unneccesarily, i do not look down on others because of the thing i do have and i do not envy others for the thing they have. i've learnt to accept myself and everything that is life. my boyfriend on the other hands (and i admire him for this) works hard trying to build his company and is always reaching for the stars, he is always encouraging others to do better but with me he's different. i've learnt to not say the words 'i hate you' and only speak positive or in some cases the truth about others but rumours i would never. i've stopped being an ill mannered human and no matter how arrogant a person is i would alway do my best to help them dispite the things they might of said about me. being humble encourages kind words at all times but he tends to degrade me using harsh words and call me names, completely breaking myself esteem, that is something of unjust to the fact that some times i feel him taking advantage of my kindness thinking i'm a child and i wouldn't understand in most ways the hurt i'm suppose to feel from it but i do hurt i believe i just hide it better than most people. 

 

you cannot want to be humble and keep wanting so much that you are willing to push aside a person who is willing to stand by you even in hell 

 

say kind words do kind things lets change the world in the most amazing way