My Life Story Part 3

A Story by Nicaushio Yamaki

This is my last book for now but until next time i hope that you enjoy it.

My life Story

Part 3

Well *signs* it sure has been a while, I never expect to come across making another series

About my life again. Oh well…I suppose it better than nothing. Anyway lately

so much has happen during the times that I have not been writing nor drawing. Supposing to doing so but

I have been busy lately with school work.

The deadlines are really killing me right now as we speak and I have been under a lot of pressure also;

For those who are reading this new copy series, before I even explain or go into any farther details"for some of you I have told and yet though there are some of you that I have not told.

However the most amazing news you shall hear them pretty soon and as far as

My speech goes, this will be my last book for now until I have plenty of leisure time to continue writing this book as like as I would not only enjoy but to love doing it as I sit in my comfort zone

For the first time.

Well here goes I hope you enjoy the new series; the moment that you all have been waiting for

Is now here so let’s get started with the story shall we?

Chapter 16

The pressure and stress

Well as I have spoken from the previous book my first day for college has been going smooth

Until suddenly the days became a bit tight on me. During the times that I was going to school, this feeling on the inside of me kept pondering me....It was so strange to me. It seemed like no matter what I do to shake the feeling, the feeling just kept coming back again. Well not to mechion that I have not been doing so well in my classes especially in my reading class. I have been working on my math more than I did working in other subjects in school, afterwards during the time me and my ex girlfriend Sam were still dating. Soon when I got back home after school my mum came to pick me up as always, as I was getting into the car I saw that my mum had brought some luxuries and clothing for me to wear. So she told me, and I saw that she brought me some new vans, although once I open the box and the kind of vans I saw was the same ones I saw Justin Adams wore when I was in school (G.O.). Anyways my mum went to McDonalds, to pick up a friend of my sisters up because she was having a sleep over to our house. And I tell you my sister always have more people to come over then I do as far as the least person, that never have company anyway. So my mum came into the room and she wanted me to try on some clothes that I may or may not like. So after that she told me that she didn’t trust Sam, I asked why she does not trust her. And she wouldn’t tell me, the only thing she told me was something was not right about her.

I prayed and kept wondering what was going on. Well Sam sent me an email before she left off center to go home she left an email saying this:” I’m so sorry babe I have been busy packing when I get home I will call or email you because that is the day that I will be tired.” After that the next day I text her best friend Danielle and I was wondering if she made it home safely. And well later I text her wondering if she would like to read some of the books that I have made come to think of it, I have about two booking accounts one is bookrix.com…. And the other one is writerscafe.org. Of course I get on WC on regular basis though however a lot of individuals kept sending me book requests. Sometimes it really irritates me when other users are only thinking of themselves then to consider supporting other peoples work. But some people do not care anyways, so it matters little I guess.

Well so on, when I emailed some of my books to Danielle. Well the outcome of that was the fact that she didn’t like a lot screaming music, I was trying to distinguish the contrast between the two, but she compared every band to her knowledge as screaming bands to her (in her book). So afterwards I called Sam because she left an email saying she was going to contact me, and she never even called to let me know she made it back home safely or nothing. She was tired from the long trip back home though, so as I was talking to her on the phone we talked for about 10 seconds as usual and I heard her saying in the background that she was talking about going over to her friend’s house for about a week. So days went by and she went to her friend’s house, and I left a text often to check up on her on her friend Danielle’s cell phone"to check up on Sam. One Sunday morning I was in the middle of closing service. I began to feel a vibrating and I noticed that my phone was ringing. So I ran straight to the

Bathroom and answered her call, every time she emailed or called me I was happy to hear her wonderful voice. Then we talked for about a second or two, and well her friend’s phone signal kept fading away at least a little bit. And then I saw that too many people were coming into the restroom, so I went outside at the front back side of the church. I asked her that can she wait until I got home and I will call her back, well she told me that she doesn’t know if her friend Danielle will allow her to use her phone again. So I told her to give me a call once she was done having a good time. So after that we both hung up, my mum me and my sister and my mum’s fiancé went to the general dollar store for a few supplies that we needed. My mum’s fiancé Joe was being silly as him as always and well after that we headed back home.

So after that I left a text asking how Sam was doing only once. And then after that I got no answer, so I called on a Tuesday of the next week, and I called around 12:54pm. I assume that they would be up right about now. So after I called asking about Sam and checking on her. I saw that she got on the messenger, and well I waited for her to messenger me (Sam) but she didn’t, so I messaged her. And she and I talked for about 2 or 3 second the same as always. She replied back about my laying off on calling Danielle’s phone, and I thought,” well that was strange I only called once”. So I replied back saying that I only called once and I also in a since told her to tell her friend my apologies. Soon she said she was showing her mum about her dream university, I was thinking hmmm what does she mean by her dream university? Well I was thinking well maybe a site (random) or something. So on, Thursday I had to go to class to do a test for my quiz and I finished it and let’s just say I didn’t do so well on it; though I tried my best at it.

So I got on yahoo to check to see if Sam sent me or was on the messenger, and so I messenger her and we talked.

During our conversation, I asked her that I wanted to talk to her about our plans. She replied, what about it? And I told her that we should come up with a “backup” plan so that way if the plan of our first choice doesn’t work then we can have another plan to fall back on. Well she I asked her about her coming to see her coming to see me, and she was saying that she did not know because of her mum was eerie about it. Oh and just for the record her mum is racist why? I don’t know, racist’s people do not get far in life however it’s bad when you have two close friends to deny you and already judge you and yet they have never met you yet. And so she was saying that unless I find a way to get to Florida then she can’t be allowed to date on the phone and internet. At any case, she has changed just as Shannon told me, I mean her two close friends, and I felt that they were accusing me of over doing it with the calling and texting. And you know how some people just because they do not like you, they say things out of proportion just to make a person think that I was a “Dickwaud” and well Sam took what they said and ran with it or shown her prove of something that was a “false truth” proof is what I call it. It’s a term in my own way in which I call certain things. Anyways well she told me about a feeling on the messenger on yahoo about a feeling that she couldn’t shake away, I asked her what kind of feeling. And well she stressed the fact of her mum and her friends didn’t like me. Well of course her mum wouldn’t just because of a skin color of course, well she told me that she didn’t think that it will work out and usually at this point my heart would start pounding and so on. Well she said she wanted to keep the friendship in which she called it; “The Trio” Then I tries to make it work knowing me of a cause I do so anyways. And I told her this:” sometimes people don’t always see eye to eye on everything but just because your friend didn’t like me knowing that your mum is racists and all, and what happened to the Sam that I know at G.O.?” Well she shouted at me saying: GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE, AND DON’T GO TO MY FRIENDS ABOUT THIS EITHER!” And I was like what? No I would never and I afterwards I try to make it work, but she refused to talk it over and then she just got off the yahoo messenger and haven’t heard from her since then.

Well, after that it took me about 3 weeks to get over her. I told others about even her friends. People that I chatted with online were not helping, I mean have you ever been a break down situation, where you have to deal with people giving you passive stupid idiot advice telling you: “oh well I hope that everything works out” or I’m sorry to hear that or blah blah blah”. In this case I text Big Red and told him all that have happened (well a short version of it) and well he was going on about how Sam was annoying, and very irritating. And whenever she set her mind on something she doesn’t when she thinks it’s approachable for her. And well of course since he was busy, I didn’t get to talk to him longer than I would have liked to. And well I called him the next tomorrow night and well he cut me off after all I was calling is to say hello and things. And he seemed to have an unpleasant attitude; so on I deleted his number from my phone and never spoke to him again. Of course he tries to talk to me on the yahoo messenger but I never replied to him until when he mentioned about my bible that I gave her and I replied back but soon afterwards he never replied back. So I stopped calling texting him completely, and I called and talked to Shannon scheburock which is a former school mate of mine, I guess you can say me and her are friends. But not really close anyways, so I spoke to her on the phone after for so long since I last spoke to her. And well she is a type that when you talk about drama she has the intensity to cut people off, which was one thing I didn’t like about her at all. I spoke to her for about 2 to 3 hours; which should have been a time that I and Sam should have been spending time talking. But she is just like ancient history now, on the other hand later on, I soon got over the hurt of the breakdown. And I began to focus more then I never had before, I was having trouble with reading in college and I was not getting any support the teacher for my reading class her name was Ms. Filer. The next chapter I will explain to you my first college experience.

Chapter 17

My first experience

Well *laughs* when first arrived for college of my first day for class. And it took me about a week or two to get the hang of knowing where my classes are. So time has gone pass, and I met my first energetic nice math teacher her name was Ms. Shywanda. She was the first math teacher that was not grumpy or selfish like, out of all the math teachers she was the first coolest teacher that I have ever met. Well after that I kept going back and forth between class times to purchase order my books for my classes. And well then I met my first teacher and her name was Ms. Seay Lewis; I call her Ms. Lewis for short though. She tries to teach class there were other students that were goofing off geez, I mean in college man that’s rough. But neither do they show up for class anyways though.

Well as I began my class work out of all classes I was struggling in mostly just reading. Now in math it’s easy plus I love math it was just the only thing is that everyone seemed to get ahead of me before the teacher in class can even go over the lesson. Oh and by the way my classes were online and so the only thing was is I could do the work but I had problems meeting and finishing up assignments before the deadline. And well when I got to reading class it was overwhelming. And I was hungry and again I was a freshman so every bit of thing was new to me, and so on I was happy that I was in college, my teacher Ms. Filer was making us get pamphlets to read and write journals about what was the pamphlet is about. And later on, I saw my two cousins taking some partial classes to refresh their minds up a bit which are good. I also saw their cousin Brandon there too.

During the process of working on my assignments, every time I began to start on my reading, Ms. Filer always takes off the lab assignments that I was trying to finish. I even tried to talk with her about mainly student hours, and she kept going on about my leaving early. I told her that I had a doctor’s appointment, and she start to seem like she was making an argument about it and then she constantly kept going on about me not turning in a single lab nor staying longer to do them. So to fix her I stayed once to do my lab and we finally went over a lab assignment. Well she helped the two girls that I go to class with and one that was sitting beside me, Ms. Filer helped her during the entire class time and when asked her for help on a word and the meaning of to a question she was being ironic about it and continued to help the other student. Well she never once offered any help or neither asked me if I needed help. And well a counselor named Ms. Channey Lowington suggested that I should talk to her outside of class. And so after that I left to find Ms. Filers office, and I spoke to her about anyways of passing her class well to avoid failing her class. And she was saying that there was nothing that she can do at this point and then she kept again began to talk about my leaving early cause I leave at 6:15pm for a doctor’s appointment and about how I didn’t turn in none of my labs. I knew that talking to her about avoiding me failing was not such a good idea.

So I went back to speak to Ms. Channey again and she was not in her office so I left her a sticky note, about meet her at a appropriate time again; to explain the result of talking to Ms. Filer about my situation

One night I waited and waited for my mum to come to pick me up, and well she was in class after that time she told me that she doesn’t leave until 9:30pm. So during the time that I was waiting for her; I was texting Kayla which me and her are dating I guess you can say we are anyway. And I told her all about the cause of the between me and my exgirlfriend Samantha shipman. And so on she told me stories about her problems. And pretty much you know how that goes when you date someone and then you began to tell them about your stories just to get them to feel sorry and have pity on you. Yeah it really bites sometimes; especially when you know it’s quite stupid anyways once you think back on it. So after that I called Ms. Linda, my former teacher from G.O. And we talked for about 25 minutes and she was telling me about how she was going back to school for her a masters degree. And I told her how a wonderful teacher she was. After that I had to leave because my mum was waiting for me outside.

Chapter 18

Fading emotions

Have you ever tried so hard in working on something and then when the test came you didn’t know what how it was possible that you failed? Well at times like this at times you may or may not; but at any case such as this you ask yourself doubtful questions like: Am I really going to make it in college? By what I have been told about how I do not have the ability to go to college could this be it? Or is going to college really right for me? Such questions get you thinking rather or not if you are going to make it or not. Well

For one thing, the one thing I hate about college is registering, and other random people that you try to be social with seem mature stuck up like people. As a result, I mostly hate people such as random or varies people come up or say randomly do I remember him or her. And at times you began to get that expression like excuse me? I am sorry but I don’t know you. And then they mansion your mum’s name or anyone else in your family. See the thing about my mum is she has a lot of certain friends that I do not know about, and they come up to me asking about as to rather I know them or not. It was really bizarre too. It seem as though other expect other individuals to actually keep up with what, when, where or who they are. My goal is to finish school not wasting time trying to get to know everyone that’s crazy.

I am not trying to sound mean or anything it’s just very hectic and most of all very irritating. Especially when you have your classes to deal with for the first time in college. The college was very nice my first college was Shelton State Community College. It was very descent and the only time I get to get out more often is when I have school or go to church on Sundays usually we go on Wednesdays but we still do anyways. When I got home I was worn out, college really took a lot out of me so much energy in learning new things can really cost you a lot out of your body and energy. Well of course I met and finally got a chance to talk with this lady that was supposed to be related to my grandmother. I was talking to her about Reena made a threatening statement and never came to apologize about it. And to top it all off I heard some other disturbing news about my older cousin Jared that my grandmother had custody of Jared and Reena had custody of my little cousin Xavier. It was a little surprising to me as all a long I thought that Reena had custody of both of them. And to think that her husband was a bit pleasant; heard rumors from my mum that he never speaks at all. Well I rarely see him at home anyways. Surprisingly he speaks to me whenever I am play on my cousin ps3 (Play station 3). All he would ask often is what I was playing, and oh yeah during the time when they were asking me random personal questions I think that was the only time he spoke to me. But still it’s quite odd that he does not speak at all to anyone.

Well so much work so little time, I used to talk to another person her name is Kayla Lay. Well me and her…. Well I guess you can say that we are dating, but ever since we have been talking and things her ex boyfriend kept coming around to cause her to be so stressed out every time I try to calm her down and to make her laugh and relaxed. I spoke with her on the text to tell her that it’s just pointless for me to come up there to see her when her ex is around. And the fact that he takes her to a lot of places, and I am not able to help her when he comes and pushes me away, every time I try to be there for her. Well sad to say she was 15 years old I think, and I really felt bad about her situation and I really wanted to help her. Her mum was awesome I like her mum and her sisters are really nice too. And plus her mum was ok about me living with them and so on. Well after that she called to let me know her cell phone was going to get cut off, and by the next upcoming month that is when her cell phone was going to get cut back on.

To be blunt she claims that she has a house phone and hasn’t called in ages, it kinda feels as though we are not really dating at all though but I just moved on and plus life is way too short for dealing with foolish snooty individuals. And well it seems that people are not who they say they are and the most important thing that I had to learn was to guard my heart and to not allow people to deceive you of how they act and what not and people would do so much things to use others as an advantage to get over in life, it is starting to get out of control the way marriages are and relationships are now you know?

And that’s why now days you can’t trust anybody because people will appear to change or smile in your face but that doesn’t mean that the person is changed or not. So people can do things and at the same time be smart with it. Soon after wards I withdraw from my reading class because I couldn’t pass it. The teacher was not very supportive to my helping needs. She was more of a “Chair-headed” person that just sits all day on the computer. One day I tried to talk to her about some student hours and she kept going on about how I always leaving too early, I told her that I had a doctor’s appointment and she still refuses to understand my situation and kept on talking about me leaving early and how I never turned in my assignments. My reading teacher’s name is Ms. Filer; they say that she was the only one who can teach all reading classes. Well that really sucks not to mechion I may be having her again… Most of all the previous reading course that I head and that sucks too but then again maybe they are all the same thing either way.

Chapter 19

Past VS Future

Last time about a week ago I went finally in so long go to a concert with my church mates.

It was very exciting that I had a chance to go and have a good time. I met some awesome singers at the concert there was this awesome chick and she had tattoo angel wings on her back and she was wearing goth/emo like makeup, and she was wearing a gothic white dress with a black vase top. She was awesome on stage… And as soon as the band disciple came up, I was jamming and for the first time I got into what it’s called the “Mosh pit” it’s like a group of people that go wild and began to bump into each other and so on. Well the best part about the last band that played and for the rest of my life was I head banged until I couldn’t it was awesome. And I along with the rest of the people fell on stage during the mosh pit it was awesome however I head banged so hard I was beginning to think that well although it’s very obvious that I over did it with the head banging after I was finished head banging I could barely keep my head up and I was so dizzy. My best bud Jay had to help me on the way to the car, and during the concert I brought me something to eat because my head was killing me and I hardly had anything to eat that day. Well there inside they had a lounge area and it was quite around a pretty good size descent room actually. And so anyways this random girl came up to me and I forgot her name however she looked as though she was around about between 14 and 17 years old. She came to me and said hi to me and asking me what was my name and took off and left. It was kinda bizarre though, meanwhile I was minding my own business during that time and I went to tell Jay about it too. Well after the concert, I and the others went back on the road, and I was soaked and wet and the next day I was very soar. My upper spinal bone was soar the sides of my neck were soar and even my legs were soar. So by Saturday within the same week after the concert I went over to my grandmother’s house and me and her had a good time except my little cousin at the least dint care or bother spending time with me or hang out yet my grandmother claims that he has been asking about me *humph* I guess when you get older as you do so does the moments.

Well after that I thought to call Blankman to see how everyone is doing and how the center is looking like even though I can care less about it anyways. So I called Danny (Blankman) and well us starting talking and then we got into the whole Sam issue about the reason that she broke up with me. And pretty much the way he told me seemed just as I figured that she would tell Blankman in ways to make her look innocent about what she did to me. So I told Blankman about it and then he was stressing the fact me being friends with her and well she was making herself look innocent and make it seemed like I was a low " class jerk and a jackass pretty much. And we’ll soon afterwards I told him that I will try and that I cannot make any guarantees that I will talk to her or what not. And well I thought about it over night, and called Blankman again and told him that it would be best if she moves on and so did I and that it was meaningless of me being friends with a person that mistreated me after all the good things that I have done for her. And after that he came back and told me all of what that he told her that he spoke to her and what I said to her. And the main thing he kept stressing about is he wanted me to be friends with her, and he also told me of how she cried about her mum having surgery and that how she was down in the dumps. I told him that I wish her well and for her mum and that I will continue to pray for her and so on. And within moments time he kept ministering to me about being friends with her and I told him no and he kept pressuring me about it. Man and he took certain things I said the wrong way. And the problem with Blankman is he allows her to put things in his head and cause him to be so one tract minded unto the fact that she changed…. And you know I am going to say this, it is good that she changed for the right purpose of getting serious with her work and focusing on what she needs to do. However Sam has to do that for her own benefit for herself and for to help her mum and relatives and friends, not to get me to be friends with her it’s like almost like going back to a deer hunters trap and getting killed without realizing it. And the fact of the matter is why I should be friends with a person that has mistreated me and used me and cared less about and the person you have dated that’s backwards. And I tried to get Blankman to understand but he refuses to understand my point of view and then he begins to take up for her for what she has done wrong oh well I guess some people are too naïve to understand.

Well after I went for the exam I didn’t do so well on the exam and I was disappointed afterwards. But I knew what I needed to focus on more and to pay close attention too. At any case no more holding back from school this time, when I start over in the fall I can’t allow anything to bother me nor distract me while am in school focusing which is why I told Blankman that I don’t want to be friends with Sam because it would only get in the way of my goals of finishing school and reaching my goals but it’s too bad that he couldn’t see that form the beginning so oh well the only best thing is that I tried and at all ends, ends well.

Chapter 20

A New Beginning

Well today while writing this book I learned my lesson about relationships. And for my I am not cut out for it, and prefer to stay single. Being single for the rest of your life is not such a bad thing, I mean just look at all of the good benefits of being singled. You get to do whatever you want without worring about if rather or not anyone is cheating on you or not calling to talk to you or spending time with you. And I also learned my lesson on giving my heart out to people too, and I also know that people who have been together for about 31 years suddenly gets a divorce. And the chart of divorcing is very high right now, and the best thing for me and being single is I learned that even though that as nice and good of a person that I am they can’t even tell even if it slaps them in the face.

One other thing I realized is the facts that if the more other people mistreat others that really loves and care for them and rejects them that they will forever lose someone that will forever love them for the rest of their lives. Although, I hate to do that but me talking to her will do her no good and nether will it be for me. The purpose on my end is to concentrate on my school work and other things; Sam is not a bad person she just has some bad habits about her that needs to change. However about Blankman was assuming that she still loves me on the inside. Though there are a few and may be a possibility rather or not if she does or not. But I would count on it, I mean she may have changed but the fact of the way she is on the inside towards others in relationships still lurks inside her.

Either way it doesn’t matter, and the way I see it is if she really changed just as Blankman says then I would believe that when I see it otherwise to be blunt, she would have either emailed me or called me. But in terms she didn’t so the way I see it is that she changed but not really much important to things that matters. On the contrary relationships are always complicated and certain amount of people’s minds aren’t really settle for what they have and then blow up a change of a person that love them to the day they die, without realizing what they say is there down fall in life to various of other people. Yet still most people talk the talk and cannot walk the walk that is the most important thing is do what a person says that will do. What I learned from all of this is that people later at the end regret for what they truly lost and the best person that really cared for them out of others that didn’t treat her right afterwards is she is downfall that everyone falls into every time. Mostly the cost of pain is priceless to suffer, most people are used to dating others that never treats them right and when they find someone that really cares about them

They reject them and push them into a pit loss to a bottomless pit, and never returning.

Most people commit suicide because of others hurting them and breaking their hearts. And some people feel that there is no point in living and that the person that they loved that rejected them was all that they lived for, and well relationships now days are began to get out of hand. And marriages are going out of control. My opinion about is it’s a bit too late for love and relationships and my input on others that are wanting settle down I feel that thou the other that are floating around hurting others shouldn’t be allow to date until they have shown themselves that they are serious about it. As much as I would like to make a change in a time crisis as this, I know that it can’t be helped. There are only a few that are serious and yet millions out of 1.45 million or should I say billion at that will cause more hurt and paint to others that are really looking forward to settling down.

The key to avoiding this and think what you want but either way the key to this is to stick with the people that you truly know that care about you then to be dating others out in the streets looking for them to care. People especially girls cheat and they are very “Connie” and very sneaky and slick. And most guys do it to but not as much as the guys though. Over 1.6 billion guys do it and out of 2.7 billion girls that do it.

The rate is like a possibility and a probability that the rate may or may not change. Either way as far as that goes it is a fact that the girls have it bad then the guys do. In most cases now in this 21^st century, some of the various people are growing tired about the whole masquerade problem. I guess as you read this chapter you are wondering: how do I know about all of this? Could this be really true? Or how is that a possibility? Well... I guess you can say that I did a little researching or just naturally know how the world is and so on. So many guesses so little time, although a rush before the horse is not always the key to knowing information though.

Chapter 21

The one remains

My life starts here and now a new leaf and a new refresh mind set towards my goals. Anyways for some time now I have been chatting online and you know I am beginning to not like talking to minor kids or teenager’s period. They nothing is the suckups they are, man this is one story on thing that happened to me it was weird. Anyways I was on Facebook and I get on just to see what has been going on and you know, just browsing on the internet looking for updates on what s going on. Anyways well there was this one girl I met off of WritersCafe.org (WC), and well me and her started talking and well she seems really nice and very random at time but I guess she was a good friend to chat with though. So I asked for her email address because I talk to people that I know from sites to chat with so she gave me a strange email address and by the way some of you may or may not know her or may sound familiar by the name but somewhat may not be the person. Her name is Cecilia Hoffman. She was the first person I met on WC; and so on she was getting an account setup and everything. And then so we talked and I got to see her on webcam at first she didn’t want to be seen, but later I take it that she was just….I don’t know shy or something. Afterwards I and she have been talking to each other often, and so suddenly I have not heard from her since then.

Well time went by and I was talking to someone that was a friend to her and oh Cecilia is more like a ballet dancer she shown me a couple of demos of what she can do and I got to know her a little bit and went on from there. Anyways I spoke to her other friend on WC and she goes by the name of “sky pillar” I think but she and I spoke and then I figured to chat with her on yahoo. Well she was I guess a good friend to talk to until the dump kitty incident. Well the thing is she was offering me to see her on webcam doing I guess poses or something, I guess you can say that I took up on that offer and well the thing is I was talking to her about some “random” things that made her feel to want even more and well afterwards we started talk and she was really mean and a careless person which is I don’t understand of why would some people be friends with snooty pathetic people that are jerks. Well she was saying about I needed to put some head on my shoulders and blah blah. And well since then I have not heard from her, she was not a good friend I can tell you that and it’s just as my best friend Jennifer on WC says: “some people are better off to not be friends with” Well so much for that and from that point I have been bored of not having anyone to chat with and it really sucks I guess I need to find something constructive to do. In all cases on my behalf it’s kinda true.

At times I kick back and think about why do people act foolish and do some of the things that they do. It’s really not worth it though to go through and suffer and afterwards having to put up with what they should have avoided all alone. Some people will do anything to get what they want, it sucks to say but some people are pathetic you know LOL I mean one outburst one taste turns a tragic world upside down and the drugs and the meth people what are you thinking?! You sometimes I always wonder what goes on in other people’s minds behind the folly that they put out half of the time. It’s almost like the series of cat ‘n the hat movie, like thing 1 and thing 2 however even by far? At any case it is so unnecessary to see how and know why and how are they doing things that are just uncost for. Well for those of you that are reading this book thank you and I appreciate your support. Well the thing is I have nothing much to say or perhaps need to wait for a couple of days before writing another book either way I apologize if this series was not very interesting. The most important thing is I always try to do is to tell things like it is and to be real because nobody likes a faker, procrastinator or more others to come. Which those of you pretty much know how the list or traitors goes from there.

Well I as much as I hate to do this as I said earlier I wish I had more time to sit in my comfort zone and talk about more things that are happening in my life but this is the end for now and this story continues forever until I die. This is a new fresh start opportunity for me, will I really focus on my work and really succeed in college, and I hope that I do. I just hope that I do not fail like the last time, and I really want to be successful so I really need to focus hard now will I ever past college and make it to a university

Can I really do this?