THE BAD NEWS

"WHEN EVERY THING IS GOING AMAZING SUDDENLY JUST ONE THING HAPPENS SO AWFUL THAT IT CHANGES EVERYTHING."

On the last day of our first year exam she gave me a very bad news that changed everything. She told me that she won’t continue her studies in our college. Actually her father was working in a company in hyd and rests of the family (her mom, her brother and she) were living in vaishali (Ghaziabad). Now her father switched his job to another company in pune and he wanted the whole family to shift pune. When she told me that it’s final that they are shifting to pune and she already got the admission in a college in pune. I didn’t know that when someone’s heart is completely fills with sadness eyes becomes little wet. I was speechless. I was sitting with her in a parking lot. I was holding her hand and didn’t want to let her go. She said only one thing can stop her either we run away (marriage was out of option cause her dad won’t agree). Moreover I was not ready for marriage. I was in 1st year of my graduation. I didn’t know what I should do to not let her move to pune. College bell rang for everybody to go sit for the exam. Her eyes were filled with tears. I was holding her hand firmly I was feeling like if I let go of her hand she will be gone forever. I didn’t have any words to say I was feeling a new form of sadness. She got up and said that she was going in for exam. She went to the class but stayed. For three hours I was at the same place I didn’t know what I was thinking. Exam got over she came to me. Out her hand in mine and said I am just going away physically, and we will figure out a way out of this situation. She sat next to me and we didn’t speak a single word for 2 hours. I was looking at her beautiful hands, her head was on my shoulder and her sleepy smell formed a cloud around us that I could smell her sleepy fragrance only. We stood up and started walking the road to the rickshaw stand. We both knew probably this could be the last time we were walking that road. I can’t describe that feeling I wished that somehow this road gets infinitely long that we somehow never reach the end of that road. But wishes don’t come true, end of the road came so quickly. She hugged me and sat on the rickshaw and went home. I stayed there for quite some time and then I came back to college.

She was the world for me that time and she was moving and taking my world with her to pune. I am not sure but I sent like 150 msges to her that plz not to shift to pune, I was in my hostel everyone was backing their bag for holidays. And I was burning my lungs. That night no one was in the hostel and I was alone thinking what I will do when she sifts. I was suddenly hopeless. I got out of the hostel went to her apartment, called her she came in the balcony and I just sat there talking to her over phone and staring her in the dim yellow light in her balcony. Next day I had to leave the hostel. So I left for my hometown and I was convinced that nothing can come between us. After a week I came back to noida there I shifted to a friend’s empty apartment which had only a bed in it. She cannot come out of her house for long, so I waited for her in a café which was next to her apartment. She sneaks out of her house for sometime then she returns. I kept waiting for her to come down again. We met like this every day. Sometimes we walk around her house.

Sometime I just stay outside her apartment and she stand in her balcony. After some days our result came out. We went to college she came first and I came fourth( I got minimum marks for the subject I didn’t appear I gave a medical certificate) anyway we were sitting on the college stairs where she told me that after three days she will shift to pune. I still can’t put it in words how I felt when she told me this. Again I sat all day outside her apartment, I was so helpless, didn’t have any clue to stop what was happening. I was so helpless. She was my strength to go through all of that. Now the final day when she had a flight to pune I made a plan to meet her spend some alone time with her. But that morning a very bad news came in, my dad called me and informed that my dadu expired cause a heart attack. I left immediately for home. I so wanted a hug from her that time. But I just left. I went to dadu’s home and she shifted to pune. I called her after two days, she was crying a lot. Mein bhi karta I also cried after a very long time. I think that was the last time I cried. Days passed I went to my college she got enrolled in some college in pune. Nothing changed between us; the only thing changed that now I had to close my eyes if I wanted to see her.

College became the worst place for me. The places where we spent time together were now making me feel so lonely. Every single person even faculty came to me and said what happened should had happened. I stopped going to college. One day I decided I will go to pune to meet her. I told her I was coming to pune. I didn’t had that kind of money to go and stay in pune for couple of days. But still I managed. I went to pune. When I reached there I saw her on the railway platform she came running towards me and hugged me for at least 6 mins. Again we spent her college time together in pune and drop her to her house and wait for her to come out again. I stayed there more than 6 days. Then I had to return noida. I can’t tell you exactly how I felt when I was leaving her in pune. Anyway I came back and I started arranging money for my second visit. I went to pune 6-7 times that year. I belong to a wealthy family so I always had money in my pockets. But still that was not enough. One time I remember I had to catch a train early morning at 4 am. I dropped her at her home around 7 pm then came back to the station. I had 200 rs in my pocket and wait for eight hours for train to arrive. She pressurized me to go watch a movie. I went to the multiplex and watched a movie alone, that was the first I watched a movie alone in a theatre. Anyway I was left with only 20 bucks in my pocket and some balance in phone. I boarded the train and slept. It was a 24 hour journey. I got up in the morning I bought some biscuits and I was left with only 2 rs. Now I was hungry I had only 2 rs in pocket. I slept and when I got up my phone was missing. Someone stole it from my pocket. Now I had only 2 rs with no phone. I reached Delhi station. I got out of the train went out to a public booth. Picked up the phone and took out the 2 rs coin and was thinking whom should I call- the girl or my friend to pick me up. I called the girl and told her what happened. Anyway now no money no phone, full bikhari walli condition. I requested the pco guy to let me call my friend he allowed me. My friend came we went to our flat. The second year of my graduation passed in arranging money and visit pune. Every single day I was loving her more and more. When third year came side effects of a long distance relationship came in. we only fought with each other as we became highly insecure about each other, and one day we broke up. That day was a turning point of my life. I can’t see her unhappy. She was not happy with me that time.
May be she lost the hope that we could be together but I didn’t, lekin she wasn’t happy with me so asked her to dump me cause I can’t walk away from her. And she did it.