Specter of my Heart

Disillusioned thoughts of love. Living the dream... eNjoy;)

I dreamed a dream once, It started with your face.. That face so full of beauty and joy!

A smile could not help but cross my own as I looked upon you.  This was the terrific beginning to the end of all my hopes.  Even as I gazed upon your graceful features, they were snatched away from me.  By the winds of chance and ill timing were my hearts desires ripped away.    Oh how my heart screamed!  Agony and loss.. surrounded by the taunting hands of time.  Who are you to tell us that we shouldn’t be… that we should wait...  Wait WAIT!… for what I ask!  What in the name of all that is good and wonderful in this world could there be to wait for?   Some previous feeling of loss? For you to get over some fraudulent feeling of love?  Wait you will for that hole to become a void of loneliness to consume you.  When you realize what it is that you have done.. will I still be here?  I do not know any longer.  As I linger in this unconscious reality, I find myself no longer smiling.. But weeping in the depths of this ill-conceived nightmare!  Cursing the names of all those who have hurt me.. cursing myself for allowing them to do so.. cursing the gods for letting it be.  But still you.. the specter of my heart… you and that face.. I can hold nothing against.  My irrational feelings only allowing me to cling to some fools hope, to wake from this chimera.