I'm fine

life of a lot of teenage girls

I've got feelings

you do too

but sometimes i feel like

I can't trust you.

I hide my insecurity

under my mask

to hide the pain on my face

and the scars from the past

sometimes i feel like

I don't belong 

and that I can't make a difference

in this world

i'm not who you think I am

with that fake smile

 plastered oon my face.

I cry myself to sleep

because when i think of me 

I don't think of beauty 

I don't think of belonging

I've suffered more pain

than you can actually see

because I'm good 

at not being me...

I think of the times 

that i have vried

and i think

what good does this makes?

you can look at me on the outside

and I'll say that I'm fine

but really 

I'm dying inside

Ifeel like i'm not beloved

and in the middle of a storm

in the midddle of the rain

I stand here

and let the tears flow down my face.

I feel different and awkward

I feel alone and scared

I know I have freinds

but they might not be always be there.

you can look at my past 

and say it's not bad

but for me it was

you have no idea how I feel.

I don't feel like I can do

what I want with my life

I know they're watching over  me

as I hope for sweet dreams

I'll never fit in

like all of the rest,

But I know that I'm loved 

by the ones who I miss.

Author's Note

i honor your critisism

Reviews

[Blue Belle]

I like the poem.

[Brave girl]

glad you have :)

[Gerald Parker]

Coming to terms with being a human being is difficult. Eloquently expressed.

[Brave girl]

thank you so much,i've come to a conclusion:as much life gets hard on you as much as you learn :)

[Gerald Parker]

Stay calm. keep learning, keep soaking it all up.

[Brave girl]

i'll try,thank you!

[Gerald Parker]

Couple of slips to fix: plastered on my face; I think of the times I have tried; friends; I is a capital letter. Your English is very good!

[Brave girl]

Ithink of the times I have CRIED; and thanks for advice :)

[Holly Mason]

feeling different awkward-you express yourself so nicely
in the middle of the storm in the middle of the rain-those are wonderful words put together so nicely it makes different shine*)
thank you for sharing

[Brave girl]

thank you for giving such a hope giving review,it makes me smile :)

[khalid]

very nicely penned. fearing to fall in love is something logic and normal in such crazy world where nobody knows what is right or what is wrong, who is sincere and who is a liar..

[Brave girl]

right;thanks for reading!

[khalid]

my pleasure

[Brave girl]

:)

[Sami Khalil]

in the middle of a storm
in the midddle of the rain
I stand here
and let the tears flow down my face.
Wow. This is a storm of heartfelt emotions that tossing and turning you by your life's storms.
But like they say dear poetess after the storm comes a beautiful day for a fact when in the right time the sun will shine on your days and the moon will smile on your nights... Keep penning your great words ...

[The Nude Writer]

I think this is well written, and your rhymes are good. But the meter is a little off. The number of beats and syllables change greatly stanza to stanza. Makes it a little hard to read poetically. But the words and ideas are fantastic! :)

[Brave girl]

thanks,i'll concider what you told me the next time :)

[The Nude Writer]

Just write with a marching band in your head :) write with the beat :)