Alone

I am searching for words to describe how I feel within

But my mind scatters about not knowing where to begin

I'm alone

In peers I seek refuge with hopes of my burdens to abate

I seek the understanding of those of which none could relate

I'm alone

I hold the heart of my soul mate in the sight of loves delusion

Vision cloudy to love so all I bring is confusion

I'm alone

I stand in the doors of the church humble despite all of my fears

I pray to God but never know if He actually hears

I'm alone

In the mist of the blood of which I once shared a name

I hide from reality of the history I'm shamed

I'm alone

Nearly everyday I stand with strangers to stay financially on pace

But the wages keeps them blinded never seeing my true face

I'm alone

In silence I scream yet not a head is turned

In ignorance I teach yet nothing is learned

I take a step everyday for the future that for which I strive

Yet only my tears let me know that I'm still alive

They stare, they judge, they worry whenever thy try to understand my speech

Sometimes they stretch out to me, but their comfort I never reach

I am a book written in every language known

Yet I'm a foreign language to all except that of my own

I seek love

I seek friendship

I seek faith

I seek family

Yet...I'm alone

I'm alone....I'm alone

Reviews

[MadalaJose]

Wow! love this poem. well penned. kept me thinking. i like this line "I am a book written in every language known/Yet I'm a foreign language to all except that of my own" somehow as I was reading I wanted to see if there is a hidden meaning of the loneliness or if it was just the loneliness of the persona. Well I didn't find out. I may have to read it again or maybe I am being overly philosophical. Wonderful poem

[AJ Houpe]

I'm glad you read it and saw the hidden meaning! It has a few different meanings...the persona is just the easiest metaphor.

[MadalaJose]

I see. I like the more. Nice work AJ