please don't be an extrovert

I see a lot of people talking about how they want to be an extrovert.

But I want to be an introvert?

How do you guys do it? You're quiet, mysterious, attractive. You know how to use silent strength.

Then you have me. I just talk, talk, talk, talk, laugh, talk, talk, talk, talk. I don't have that gift of silent strength. I talk because I hope it'll make things less awkward.

I have a love-hate relationship with my MBTI. I love how expressive and creative I am, but then people see me as dumb and stuff... if only I hadn't been so loud. Laughed so hard. Talked so much. How do you do it?

People are more attracted to you. You're quieter and less weird. You wouldn't want to be me. You don't want to be the only people talking or laughing or not taking things seriously in a class. 

I want to be quiet and be that one person everyone wants to be. How do you do it? I don't like how I seem to talk so much. Everyone tells me to shut up. People don't tell you that, right?

I can't focus like you. I jump from topic to topic and then never get anything done. I see your work and how it's flawlessly done. There's a 100 slapped across that paper and I can't help but smile. Like, seriously, your work is good. But how can you focus for that long?

How do you guys know how to show off your smarts? Your first impression is always this smart and intelligent person. How do you do it? I'm pretty smart too, but... it's just so much easier for me to make jokes about myself. How do you stay serious?

Seriously, being an extrovert sucks. I'm the opposite of you. Everyone is attracted to you, it's crazy. How do you do it? You're perfect. What am I?

Just a dumb extrovert, and you're the perfect introvert.

How do you do it? You're so cool. I don't care if you can't socialize. Don't you know how much people wish to be you? You're everything I want to be.

People see me as un-dateable. But you? You're... hot, I could say. You're what a guy wants. Not some weird freak that can't control their body and has to dance at every moment possible.

How do you do it? Guys look at you with those admirable eyes and they give me those... weird looks.

I almost forgot. You're able to mend and blend into schedule and routine. I can't. I'm all over the place and I see you. You're doing it. How? How do you do it?

I promise you, I love myself. But I'd love myself more if I was like you.

Author's Note

Sorry for this random dump lol... just a side note!! I'm writing this as an ENFP, so maybe it's different for people reading this! Feel free to agree, disagree, tell me what an introvert is like... thanks for reading!