I saw her die......

A Story by mystichaze

i write this in teal for ovarian cancer...... for her

i saw her die......

I knew what was coming.I knew it was going to happen sooner or later though wished it was later. Wayyyy later....

It was Wednesday morning about 1:00 AM when my brother went to sleep but i stayed awake beside her.I gave her a few drops of water and even those were hard to swallow for her(I didn't know they were going to be her last). She opened her tired eyes and looked at me with pain so I called the nurse and gave her pain killers and asked the nurse to give her something to sleep i didn't know she wouldn't open her eyes ever again if I had known I would of never let her go to sleep.

4 years ago i found out she suffered from cancer,ovarian cancer,stage 3C over the 4 years she got treated with chemo, surgery ,scans , blood tests and God knows what she was brave she had hope even when i had lost it.Then 8 months ago the doctors gave up on her they said she would never go home they said she had days left but she held on till months and months.By the time the doctors had told us she wasn't in her senses because of the morphine , hydro-morphine and methadone (the pains killers she was on).She lost a lot of weight,stayed in the hospital for 3 months, she lost all her energy and appetite. She couldn't even lift her arms, move her neck or open her eyes. She was getting weaker and weaker by the day.I knew she was gonna die I knew I was going to lose her.

It 26th of August 2015 when the nurse came in to check her temperature and blood pressure.I was on the phone with my sister i didn't know it was going to happen so soon I should of held her hand I should of talk to her,the nurse came in and she told me her history which I already knew.It was about 3:00 AM when the nurse told me that she didn't have blood circulation.I knew it meant she had gone into a coma.She was a no code patient.I was worried but I still had hope then suddenly all the nurses began to gather around her checking her pulse,putting her oxygen on full blast. That's when it hit my like a rock my heart fell to the little ground I had left under my feet.The head nurse told me to call some adult to be with her when she did pass away because she had a couple of hrs to minutes left so I called my entire family I was only 16. I was a little girl ...who had grown up soo very fast..when they reached the hospital my brother and I were by her side talking to her asking her to let go and that we would be fine.When they all came she took her last breath at 3:50 AM

That's the last time she hugged her daughter (ME)and that's the last time I ever got to called her MOM.