At nine forty five on a week night most windows of the
homes in this quiet neighborhood are cooled with the shades of nightly shadows
and placid moonlight, all but one.
“Get out!” Came the enraged demand of an artificially
auburn haired young woman.
“But-“ A man’s voice protested from the doorway
“Out!”
“Mary if you’d just-“ He pleaded.
“Don’t EVER call me Mary.” She darkly reminded, “Not
Mary, not Lynnie, not Marian- and if I’d just what? Listen? I’m through
listening to your garbage. Now go! Get out of here!”
“Honey plea-“
“I said GET OUT!” She screamed, a glass from the kitchen
dish strainer flew with precision toward the man and shattered against the
almond tinted front door; small fragments like tiny jewels exploded around him.
He tensed but remained stationary.
“I’m done with this!” She choked, tears of anger and
agony stung the rims of her eyes; but she was too proud to allow them to streak
her porcelain face. Not with him looking at her. She breathed in deeply and
exhaled slowly, the air shaking with the raw emotion she displayed so clearly
in her voice. “Five years, Eric.” Her voice was quieter now, the volume
replaced with malice, “Five years of my LIFE I gave to you.” Fighting back
tears with a purse of her unpainted lips the woman rested the underside of a
closed fist against her mouth and looked away. A thick heavy silence quickly
filled the space between them for a moment, returning her gaze she offered to
speak but decided against it. Solemnly she shook her head, “just leave.”
“Marilynn, sweetheart, please-“
“Are you deaf?” Spat the woman, “I told you to leave.
Turn around, open the door, and get the hell out.”
He opened his mouth in an attempt at his defense
“Get out!” She wailed in anguish, “I don’t want you here!
Leave! Go, on! Go!”
“This isn’t what you want.” He stated flatly, “and you
know it.”
“Get out! Get out! GET OUT!!!” She shrieked as more glass
found itself hurtled through the air with each repetition of her demand, all
finding the fate of its previously fallen brother. Softly she whimpered despite
herself, her throat raw and burning with the forcefulness of her scream.
He lingered a moment, the forest of his eyes studying her
a moment. Watching. Then on silent feet he left the residence closing the door
much harder than needed.
As if by the throw of a switch her composure eroded to a
fraction of nothing and with knees seemingly made of rubber she found a wall
and slowly slid to the cool bleached tiles of the ivory floor. In disbelief the
woman found herself staring absently at the ceiling above her, allowing her
lids to close a moment she carefully lowered her gaze to the door and the
hundred portions of shattered glass that now littered the entryway to her home.
A substantial wave of heavy sobs now wracked its way ruthlessly through the
small frame of the woman; never in her entirety of her twenty three years had
she felt so defeated and utterly powerless. It was in this moment the tears she
had fought so desperately to constrain broke through her reserve and fell to
streak her face; wrapping her arms tightly around her brought up knees she
rested her head against the denim and wept openly.
Minutes passed that felt like hours, hours that had felt
so much like days she allowed herself to weep there in the cold stillness of
her kitchen until finally, bleary eyed and sore, she slowly drew in a chestful
of air and sighed heavily. “Come on, Lynna.” She fruitlessly coaxed, “it’s not
like the sky has fallen and the world ended. It’s just another page. Another
new chapter.” But I loved him. She found her subconscious softly whispering
behind her thoughts. Very cautiously she tested her feet, firmly grasping a
nearby counter for support; she forcefully smiled softly to herself when she
found her limbs sturdy and able. Eyeing the glass Marilynn sighed as pianist’s
hands wove their wave through her hair and rested at either side of her slender
neck, with a puff of her cheeks she allowed them to fall once more to sides and
proceeded down the hall to the broom closet at its end.
Broom and dustpan in hand the woman’s icy orbs fixated
not on the contents of the still open broom closet but the framed picture on a
small coffee table no more than an arm’s length away. Expressionless her eyes
studied intensely the smiling faces within the frame, mouth drawn to tight
white line, she abandon the broom to retrieve the object. Removing the
photograph from the frame as she went once back into the kitchen set fire to
the picture and threw it in the sink to burn, and she escaped through the back
door and into the early October night. The glass would simply have to wait.