Dancing With The Devil

June 20th, 2007

Dancing with the Devil,
Bargaining with my soul.
Waiting, watching, patiently.
I let him have his say,
Hoping I'll have strength enough, to look the other way.
But the gift he gives his beautiful...
An offer of peace of mind...
A lie of no more pain.
Look the other way.
He lies to me, I know.
But I can't escape his hold.
Desire just seems strong enough to make me want to stay..
Though it goes against my will...
I live to die another day.
Live to choke on all the pain that every second brings.
Memories of a peaceful time keep flooding through my mind,
And how I slipped and lost it all...
It seems to me that life is nothing,
Pain's only chance to play.
With everything.
Strung upon a wall of guilt and hatred,
I stare back at myself and see what I hate most.
Mistakes of a thousand lies...
Stare back at me from my reflection's eyes.
Can't look away in shame.
Chains bind me to myself.
Covered in the blood I've spilled,
I realize it's my own.
No longer will I arise from what once was.
No longer will I arise from the ashes and be reborn again...
The phoenix's bright flame are but embers now...
....
Water mixes with the blood as the wings are slowly cut...
Cut from a demon's body, where they never should have been.
Oh light of mine, I'd love to see.
And free me from myself.
Anger,
Guilt,
and hatred...
Have made me some one else...
......
Dancing with the devil, this starless night...
I wish I'd see...
That there is still some good in me...
Dacning with the devil,
Bargaining with my soul....
I know that what I do is wrong....
Or so I have been told.