Missing You

Second short story.

She drank every night it seemed now....she missed him so bad....so bad sometimes she hated herself just for breathing.She would sit up all night and cry,she would cry until the sun's lips kissed away the darkness that consumed the world...but her....the sun never felt warm and welcoming.She longed to see him...just tell him she was sorry....but the wall between them was too strong...she could not longer take advantage of his presence.Night after night she would cry,she would cry until she only sobbed harshly,until no tears stained her face.She longed for death.....she longed to see him again.If only just once more...just once would've been good enough for her.The bottle tips again,another finished,the tin lid pops off to another night of grief.The lights were off,the storm that raged on outside seemed to go on in her heart and mind.She wanted nothing more than to end it all...but....he wouldn't let her.She knew he wouldn't approve...she knew he wanted her to live the rest of her life in happiness even if he wasn't there...but....a life without him was no life at all.The lightening lit up the house,she saw him sitting in front of her for only a moment.Tears fell down his face,but he said nothing to her.She wondered why he cried.Was it for her?He had no reason to cry for her,not when it was her who took his very life who stopped his own breath.How could he even think of crying for her?Her suffering was her punishment for not thinking clearly,for being a fool.She brought the bottle to her lips but set it down and cradled her head in her hands.She cried...like the many many nights before....she cried for everything.She hated herself more than anything,but she couldn't find the will to take her own life.She hoped this storm would be her deliever...but it didn't seem she would see him tonight.Other than her dreams and the occasional shadow that smoothly glided from room to room with her.She knew he watched over her,but she wanted to feel him there.His shadow done nothing to her but make her long for him even more.She knew she wouldn't see him again...not in this life or the next....but God how she longed to see his beautiful face once again.To see him smile....that was all she wanted.She stood and made her way to the window,bottle in hand,she looked out the window as the rain beat mercilessly down on the window pane and the lightening lit up the clouded skies. Thunder rolled across the sky.....and again....she thought of him.He loved to be here...with her...during a storm such as this. He loved to hold her shaking form and whisper comforting words to her.He wasn't able to this now was he?She leaned her aching head against the cold pane,"please."She pleaded."Please....I want to go..."she said.Tears streamed down her face once again and she fell to the floor."I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE!!"She screamed out to the darkness."I DON'T WANT TO SUFFER ANYMORE...GOD JUST TAKE ME HOME....I WANT TO SEE HIM AGAIN....please.."She curled into a ball and as she lay there,crying and pleading with whatever would hear her,the storm raged on stronger outside her sanctuary of despair.Her eyes were closed tightly,she tried to dull the pain that seemed to pound the inside of her mind. "please......just let it end."She whispered softly,"I don't want to feel anymore...there's nothing left to feel for..."She closed her eyes once again and was surprised at how her heart began to slow,she lay there in the silence of the storm....along on the floor....her body relaxed and she opened her eyes once more.He stood there,his outstretched hand welcoming her,"come on....let's go home."He said smiling.She was confused but took his hand," it's time for it all to end."He wrapped her in his arm and began to console her as he would on a night such as this,he whispered softly to her until the tears stopped and the sound of her sobbing ceased."Open your eyes my love...see...and live for me..."He said.She done as she was told and opened her eyes to find him gone and silence surrounding her.She fell to floor and she cried...again....for him....