That Feeling, again

That Feeling, again

A Poem by maya_online
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but then my heart jumps, again, and I know I can't do this again.

"
But then I get that feeling, again.
That feeling where
everything is better
in your presence, and 
I'm unsure how I've lived
life without you until now,
because without you I
can't live.
I get that feeling, again,
where roses seem to sprout where 
you walk, and where you run
beauty seems to unfold, but I know
it's not real because I've felt
this feeling before, and again, I know
the roses will wilt, again, and the
beauty will fade, again. 
Again, that feeling, 
seems to play a tune that I can't 
ever put my
finger on, but it's 
something so beautiful,
and lovely,
that I don't ever want it to 
stop.
But I know it will, again, because
I've felt this before, and that tune 
becomes something
that I hate hearing,
and it reminds me of
things I hate thinking.
So as I get this feeling, again. 
I know where the roses will 
stop and where the beauty 
will end, I know how the tune
will play out, because i'm feeling
all this again.
I know I still have no clue
what this feeling is, but
when this feeling fades,
again, 
and my heart breaks,
again,
maybe I'll learn to 
grow my own roses.
Have my own beauty.
Maybe I'll learn to play that tune
and maybe, just maybe
I'll feel this feeling, again.
And have a name for it.
So, again?

© 2024 maya_online


Author's Note

maya_online
https://voca.ro/1o1VufCVQ8vN

As someone who over thinks a BUNCH, I don't think 'love' is ever really the word when the person we enjoy being around depicts our entire mood. At the end where the speaker says "so, again?" it's as if shes asking her partner if she can love him, or if he is ready because when she loves she loves strong, if their upset, so are you, and you know it's not healthy but you do it over and over and over...
again.

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It's heartbreaking 💔...
Your lines.. I can feel.. I was on that place long time before... holding tightly helpless hope....

Keep writing..
It's like lyrics..

Posted 3 Days Ago


maya_online

3 Days Ago

Thank you so much for your words, I think you've never truly felt love until you've felt this "feeli.. read more
Jeyanthi

3 Days Ago

Yeah right... it's love scar...
I can feel the despair in your writing, the aching. You've captured your feelings beautifully and thoughtfully. I wish you the best, M.

Posted 3 Days Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

maya_online

3 Days Ago

I try my best, thank you for your words !

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Added on November 10, 2024
Last Updated on November 11, 2024
Tags: melancholy, love, attachment, maya_online

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