Defy the Fate, I am Restrained

Take this blade already stained red
Take it here and now from my bloodied heart
Thickening air I'm fading fast
Already dying from the living start.

Forgotten all my past sins and regrets
Nothing matters tonight, tonight
I'm sorry for all your loses and all your pains
But this shining blade looks so bright.

Worth nothing in this time of despair
The pain takes me into its grasp and makes me numb
A slave of the torture and the suffering
This feeling of nothingness and none to come.

I take this night into my hands and make it my own
This blade becomes my life as it rips through flesh
I need not the despair I have now
My blood runs through my hands as if they were mesh.
The light is not so near now
For the tears have dried and blood spilled
To kill the longiness and the pain with doubt
The darkness has come and I have been killed.