I Don't Wanna Be Alive Today

Yeeeeeah.

I don't wanna be alive today,
The reasons I will not share
I don't wanna be alive today
And I'm not sure I care
I woke up today suffocated in anger
Maybe sadness or pain
Whatever it was
Like a ton of bricks it came
I woke up today and I couldn't breathe,
My heart was stressing to beat
My lungs collapsed with every breath
As if the floor fell beneath my feet
I don't wanna be alive today
There is no one I wish to see
I'd rather stay in bed
And drown in misery
Not even the beautiful sunrise made me smile
The sun I wanted to chase away
Because sun is the light
That starts a new day
I don't wanna wake up
The outcome of events haven't been in my favor this week
Everything went from bad to worse
Self harm at it's peak
And I don't wanna be alive today
And I didn't wanna fight
I wanted to bury in misery
And fear, out of sight.