Hard Beliefs

I was raised Catholic but fell out of love with the whole religion thing...but there are some things I feel are true and this season is making me think of them so...

They say He was made in His image

Jesus the Prince

the Savior

 

They say that He died for our sins,

my sins

the good catholic girl

outside

but secretly I sinned

even though He died.

 

They screamed my guilt to me

condemning me with their voices

in dark boxes

fear

they had no face

so I bruised my knees on

hard

wooden

benches

fervent whispers of

 

Our Father

 

Our Father

 

Hail Mary full of Grace

 

but

My sins

never washed away

 

My lies were heard through megaphones

The Father

Son

The Holy Ghost

 

and my Mother

 

looking down on me

 

knowing

 

knowing all I hid

 

I cowered before this

 

angry

 

angry God

 

I ran away

I learned

I scorned

 

I think of the one they said had saved us

 

They say He was made in His image

Jesus the Prince

the Savior

 

Made in Gods image?

Yet Jesus walked in open places

hugged the worst of sinners to His breast

 

cleansed them in

cool

clear

open

water

 

I see sun shining on His face in darkness

I feel His arms were safe ones

I feel His smile healing

the most broken thing.

 

I feel the sand under His feet

and His hunger

as He  walked and fasted

believing He could give a better life

to end the fragile ones suffering

 

I know the anger in His heart

for the vanity and possessions

that stole  the kindness and empathy

from the souls of weak people

 

I don't know much about saints and God

But I know

 

That Jesus was beautiful

 

Son of God

Our Savior

Mother Mary's miracle child

or

some say

just a man

 

I don't know what to believe

 

But I know

there is nothing wrong

with wanting to be like Him.

 

Whatever else I don't believe

I know

That Jesus was a beautiful man.

Reviews

[Charlotte Rose]

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