Best Friend

I thought you were my best friend. 

I thought you knew me better than anyone else.

Because you listened.

You were there when no one else was.

But you weren’t,

Not really.

Because you still have no idea about the person sitting beside you.

Your ‘Best Friend.’

 

If you really knew me,

You’d know the truth.

You’d know me better than I know myself

You’d understand where I’m coming from

You’d know I’m not as happy as I seem

You’d see the façade I put on everyday

But you don’t see it,

Do you, Best Friend?

You refuse to accept me for me.

 

But did you notice?
Notice everything I did so you would want me,

Want to hang out with me

So I wouldn’t be alone.

Does that sound like something a Best friend would do?

Because it was.

Is.

Will always be.

 

I changed.

I sculpted myself into someone worthy of your friendship

Does that sound about right?

Had you noticed?

Who am I kidding,

Of course you haven't.

Because noticing would mean you would have to act like you care

And we all know you don’t do 'that.'

Honestly, I don’t even think you like me.

I can see it in your eyes

Hear it in your voice.

 

You resent me because I am ‘better’ than you

Not in school,

You’ve always been smarter.

Not in looks,

You’ve always been prettier.

Not in life,

You’ve always had more experience. 

But because that’s what your parents said.

“She doesn’t drink,” they said.

But now I do.

“She doesn’t smoke,” they chided.

But now I do.

“She isn’t like you,” they insisted.

But now I am.

 

I changed for you.

So I could keep you,

Best Friend.

Because I couldn’t bear to loose you,

Best friend.

But did you notice,

Best Friend?

 

I didn’t think so.

Author's Note

honesty.
I want honesty.

Reviews

[Sophie]

It's not five lines! I'm so proud! This is really good, very angry, but in a quiet way, great poem :)

[Falling Leaf.]

This is something I can relate to. Although there is no rhyme scheme, syllable count, or meter, there's emotion here that captivates the reader. Also, in the second to last stanza, you used the wrong form of 'bear.' Other than that, nicely done...

[Grace]

thank you, i changed it, i always get those 'bear/bare' confused.

[Falling Leaf.]

No trouble at all! Those are, indeed, hard to remember