Tell Me Life is Beautiful

Tell me life is beautiful.

It seems so ugly and I don't know

why they think I have it all.

While I grew up nothing was what it seemed.

All my dreams were once true,

but then they broke my mind,

a tragic, never ending fall.

 

I'm lost, I'm lost, the universe so vast

and I can't find myself. Lost in the fear

that i'll screw up and my soul will be taken away.

I cling on, barely, feeling the balance dangerously sway.

It's innocence lost, peeled aside,

hands on my waist saying everything will be just fine.

 

How to know that it was the beginning

of self loath, the belief that I would never be more

than a lady of the night. Feeling used,

and it's a feeling I could never really shake.

But truly it's discovery of human ugliness,

stepping carefully, for all around are land mines.

 

And still no ones going to take my soul away,

lingering memories are webs ensnaring

the opportunity for life free and happy.

Theres a fire inside me that used to burn with rage,

a crazed beast breaking free of its cage.

Until hands reached out and gently cradled my heart,

softened the fire so that it glowed

beautifully in love and meaning found.

 

For when I peered closely between the cracks,

I could see the beams of light

waiting to be set free of the stifling of night.

I drank in it, like a lover kissing me hard and wild,

feeling that spark of electricity just waiting to lose control.

And with my head held high, feeling like a beauty queen

with heels and hair done up, I felt I could fly.

 

It's making me crazy, I must say,

making me crazy to find escape into the sunshine.

In the summertime, dozing under warm rays

and sipping cherry coke as I lounge in a bikini

waiting to be kissed by the sun...

That's when I feel beautiful.

 

And it's tinged with sadness because

I only want to find the purpose, the reasons,

for why my eyes are still framed with melancholy.

Summertime sadness that rides by my side all year long.

Someone said I was an exotic flower,

my fragrance a dangerous allure,

that amidst being tainted and flawed,

my penetrating gaze brought devotion and awe.

 

They say life is beautiful. And so it is.

It's raw, it's more beautiful than

a night sky unsullied by man made lights.

And when I look at the stars,

I find peace and believe we'll all be alright.

Reviews

[Exsanguination]

Life IS beautiful

[dunnia]

wow this is amazing love it all...cant pick a favorite part its all good :)

[Melody Telleria]

Thank you, so encouraging (=

[MAC]

what an incredible poem...so much is unknown and probably always shall be. beautifully written.

[Melody Telleria]

Yes, its quite amazing how much is truly unknown. Thank you for reading this.

[MAC]

is was my pleasure to read this :)

[Levi Levin]

Good job Melody, I enjoyed reading it:)

[Muse]

what a beauty...

How to know that it was the beginning
of self loath, the belief that I would never be more

Sweetie..this is life's journey...the questioning and wondering. It's all part of life. Life is beautiful if we compare the good days to the days that are bad. Without the ugly...I do believe we'd take all of our blessings for granted.

And it's tinged with sadness because
I only want to find the purpose, the reasons,
for why my eyes are still framed with melancholy.


I think the answer to life is part of the forbidden knowledge...perhaps some day we'll all be enlightened enough to know our purpose. Keep on penning my dear. Beautiful!

[Melody Telleria]

I love your idea that the answer to life could be part of the forbidden knowledge. How thought provoking. And how true that there must be bad/evil in order to understand what is good and beautiful. Thank you so much for your review (=

[Antonio Valentino]

And it's tinged with sadness because

I only want to find the purpose, the reasons,

for why my eyes are still framed with melancholy.

Summertime sadness that rides by my side all year long.

Someone said I was an exotic flower,

my fragrance a dangerous allure,

that amidst being tainted and flawed,

my penetrating gaze brought devotion and awe.


what a bunch of wonderful verses

life can be very complicated

and its different for all of us

keep asking these questions

thats what makes us human, and sometimes very confused

which is okay

really enjoyed the piece, thanks for sharing it with us

Antonio

[Melody Telleria]

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I always keep asking the questions. Many times I am saddened, depressed, horrified by the answers. But its the only way we grow. And its as human as it gets.

[Antonio Valentino]

you are so right about the answers being hard to hear sometimes.. lucky for you, you have the courage to ask the questions though..

to growing wiser and happier yes

oh and you're very welcome, the pleasure was all mine..

[MandaBear]

All I know is that this is beautiful!

[Erinne S.]

I think everyone has a point in life where they wonder these same thoughts. Well done!