What Lies Beyond This Mourning's Wake Up Call As A Return To Reality?

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What Lies Beyond This Mourning's Wake Up Call

As A Return To Reality?

S**t Is S**t & Lies Are Lies

To Those Who Damn Sure Ain't Stupid

-- But Wise Guys No Matter The Name:

Gorgeous Jane Or A Bit Slow, Joe

Written By Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

Copyright © 2023 Marvin Thomas Cox

DBA: Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

All Rights Reserved

My Beautiful, Sweet, & Loveliest Wife

That Any Man Could Eve Hope To Marry & Hold,

Or Ever Have Had: As My Friend, My Lover,

& The Mother Of Our Five Children:

Irma …

The following is a pasting of a comment review given upon my article, Deception Is A W***e's Face Smiling, updated and revised edition, posted on www.allpoetry.com as well as (blessedly & thankfully in peaceful wish of bliss) www.writerscafe.org ... This reply to several comment reviews on this site is the frankly candid tell it like it is totally honest and Brutally Frank True Life's summation of my life's living, meaning, and true heart and mind's philosophy ... My two cents worth, for what ever it is worth, if anything at all … it is me, laid bare, naked, and short, damn sure 'tain't tall or truly smart at all!

My Beautiful Basque/Irish Mom: Helen Marie Flynn Ballenger Cox Taylor: “I Love You Mom!”

Hail, treasured friend and most esteemed Poet, Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU!

https://allpoetry.com/Andre_ben-YEHU 

Because I am a truthfully overly wordy Son of a B***h, I am sharing a sort of generic comment review return of thanks with you that is all too f*****g true ... I agree with Andrew's assessment of how men choose to refer to women as w****s ... It is we men who are w****s ... It is we men who are selfishly a******s who seek only to feed our own wants and desires, physical, mental, and emotional ... And that is a statement of true that no man will own up and tell you ... And you can take that to the bank, Betty, Jack ... I only used the W***e example as a metaphor for The Church ... And so, please allow me to share the thoughts and feelings that I shared with, BOTH, Dave and Andrew:

Having learned this all too true, ALTRUISTIC, fact of life through the living of it (Life, that is), myself with my wife of 49 years (You don't just up & take a shower & wash that life changing s**t off) of putting up with my sorry and worthless a*s: All men are just naturally a******s who seek that which pleases and paints their world the color they selfishly seek ... And the death of my wife has most powerfully supported this mourning and grieving conclusion:  I've had a year long with her dead-n-gone look into the mirror of my Life: And an A*****e is all that I can see of me, in all too true reality! Without her, I am but corpse awaiting the call's report of his own heart stopping �" ceasing to beat in grinding to a thudding halt's �" finalist fatality …

They say that, "You can't cry over spilled milk," but it seems a man never ceases to cry over losing a damn good woman, a wife that you, suddenly, realize you were never deserving of, nor worthy of, the fact's fatality's reality of who & what she was: The bare faced-n-bold FACT, JACK, that she was the light and love of your life, of each and every moment, and that as wondrously beautiful decorations adorning each and every day of your life that made this Life, YOUR SELFISH PIECE OF S**T LIFE, more than well worth the living ... And now ... She's gone ... No fault of hers, for she was only human as you and I: Born To Die ... Never to be seen or known again, as a most wonderful anomaly's phenomenon that any man could find himself blessed, fortunate, or lucky enough to have met and experienced to have met and known as a woman and Human Being most unique, who was truly a gem in my Life, without whom I could not have made it -- at all, in no way of no how, and without whom I am totally and helplessly, utterly, lost, leaving this life, without any inkling's iota's sense of a hint's semblance of a blessed as blissed, guiding light, a Life that has now BECOME, meaningless, and tasteless ... But, to have met and known her, to have loved her, and have her love me is, and has been and always shall be, the definitive and all defining moment of my life, and that FACT, dumb a*s Jane-n-Jack, until that very true day that I die, though I was, truthfully, unworthy of having every met or, or of ever having her stand beside me, (& stand beside me she did) as my wife ... Hindsight, truly does F*****G suck! ...

She is gone ... She is not coming back in any so called Afterlife, ever again, though my heart would love, rages, rants, & wishes, to believe so …

Every Falling Star is unique, a one and only of its kind, and this true statement defines each of us, defines the light and love of my life, my wife: Irma Gomez Gutierrez Cox ... This truth stands for her, for me, for you, and remains a brutally frank truth of our existence as Human Beings who continually seek to insert a soothing belief into our hearts and minds that would have us believe that there is something more after we die, some better and brighter future once we are gone ... Yet, does it ever enter our minds that those whom we love might not wish to be around us if there should actually be an AFTERLIFE, after devoting the entirely of their lives, their every of moment of what could have been a better and brighter future without having met and married our sorry asses, without us, to then darken and totally f**k up their so called, ETERNAL, Eternity? ... Go figure, contemplate and meditate, for none of us shall ever know, but we do know that each of us, ALL Goddamn men, are a******s ...

And so, from that light and gem of my life, herein is entailed, idolized-idolol-ated as culminated, my the entirety life's hard learned philosophy, the culmination of all my Education and life's hard learned lesson's philosophy that does seek to glean truth, sift truth from f*****g les, and separate, but never alienate -- facts from lies:

Thank you so very much for taking the time and open mind's effort to read such a controversial piece of my heart and mind scrawled to page ... I cannot say that this piece is monumental, though I do truly thank you so very much for your gracious words ... I simply dare to say and go to that place, within each of us, that dares to pose viable questions as to that and those things which we have all been taught to accept and believe ... The only difference being that I am an EX-minister who has devoted his time's effort of living this life to meticulous in depth study and research of Science, History, and Religion -- that which Mankind's trappings (trap is a very good word to use here) of Organized Religion have taught ignorant (you can be learned & educated & Academically Scholarly within that deceptive art of remaining Intelligently-Stupid & Damn Sure Down Right Ignorant) & superstitious men to accept (as a damn fool's fodder: AKA: Blind Faith: Belief without true understanding, perception, or discrimination: Alias: A Blind Fool's Faith), to believe in & live by, as that perfect recipe for controlling the hearts & minds (thus the eked out lives) of all men & Mankind who fall prey to that only existing Entity's Trinity (created by the mind of Man alone & and NO F*****G God) that is but Taxes, Tithes, & Lies -- wherein it remains but only common sense's sound reasoning of Free Thinking open minded, unbiased, logic that the teachings and knowledge OF ALL THREE of these trusted areas of profession's expertise (yeah, another form of that which has been ingrained within our mind's anciently mythological concept of a “Trinity” as that Original Sin's Threesome seen today as only existing as a Pornographic concept) MUST BE FOUND, (upon examination's scrutinous cognizant mind's eyes of seeking purest unstained truths, rather than the pleasant pastry of sugar coated & sweet tasting lies), ALL THREE (Science, History, & Religion, if true to Mankind as Humanity), MUST AGREE (each as Humanity-reliable, trustworthy & definitive Truths which do prove to back up & support the others) for any and all of these famous 3 as in definitively THREE areas of expertise to be taught and accepted as truly true truest truths to honestly guide men's hearts and minds as a purest and shadow-less light clearing the path for a brighter future for Humanity's ONLY race of Mankind that is (shall always remain) The Human Race …!!!

A True Friend & Most Fervently A Fan Of All HUMANITY -- Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

For Irma ... The Light & Love Of MY Life!

 

(Written February 25^th, 2023)