To Few Tears For Hallelujah

the greatest sorrow that I've ever known told straight from the heart ...

Too Few Tears For Hallelujah

Written By Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

Copyright © 2021 Marvin Thomas Cox

DBA: Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

All Rights Reserved

It was 1973,

as I was cruising Newman Park,

on a Sunday afternoon,

when true love came into my life …

I had been watching her for months,

driving by her house playing Freddie Martinez songs,

8 track and every song from El Embajador

just hoping that she would look up,

and see me as alive …

And that day was the day I came alive,

with her a part of my life as my life blissed,

for she was my life and she became my wife …

I was an a*****e, selfish, self-centered as nothing,

any sane woman would want, or desire …

Regardless of sanity's reason,

regardless of all I was not and would never be,

She gave me five beautiful children,

as Faithfulness became a word,

totally redefined and assessed,

as me alive and damn sure most blissed,

though, stupidly, I knew it not …

For my life was all about me as a man,

and her true beauty, I simply,

could not see …

I was a fool who thought himself,

wise, intelligent, and tough,

and she was the decoration on my Manhood's

Xmas tree that made me Macho …

I took kindness, gentleness, and sweetness,

as weakness,

for she was everything that I was not:

Good, kind, forgiving, understanding, loyal, and faithful …

And I was a fool,

loved by a bigger fool than I,

who saw me for who I could be,

and never for who I was …

Life dealt us both some tough cards,

but most of hers were because of me,

her choosing me,

when any other woman,

would have wisely walked away …

But she was a dumb-girl,

loyal and faithful,

to the bitter end of her,

hurt, wounded, and battered life,

that eventually saw us Divorced ...

But she refused to give up on me,

leading, again, eventually,

to a new, beginning,

and a Marriage most blissed,

once again …

What fool woman,

anywhere, of any place, or any time

would do that,

unless she truly loved me …?

True love only comes around,

once, and never again …

But for me, True love came to see me twice,

in my undeserving life,

as a woman who desired,

to be my wife,

and hold me as a husband,

no one else would ever have …

On January 7^th, 2021,

COVID-19 stole her away from me …

So this please do know:

There is no just God …

There is no God, at all, who loves Mankind!

And …

There are too few tears for any Hallelujah …

But Irma Gutierrez Gomez Cox,

shall live on in my heart forever,

until that very day I die …

(Written January 12^th, 2021)