Karma

The journey for the first kiss

Karma

 

The story of a regular guy’s failures with girls from preschool to high school.  One who watched many romantic movies to get tips to become a suave player?  Just a friend never a boyfriend.   But he just could not escape his funny man image.  I came close several times but it just never worked out.  Until one thing changed and it actually worked out.  Throughout high school I had to deal with the funny guy image, a parent separation, but good things happen to those who wait.  Karma is something I believe in and I thought I have been a good person and eventually what goes around goes around. This story has feelings of heartbreak, excitement, tears, anger, sadness, and euphoria.

Important Characters

Jon- Narrator/Main Character

K- Close Friend/Neighbor

G- Close Friend

SSO- Close Friend

R-Close Friend/Wing Man

AL- Close Friend

SP-Close Friend

Scene 1- Narrator talking over a screen of boys just hanging out

Jon-What is the goal of the average man? Too get laid.  I am not that average guy, I like that romantic s**t that makes girls go wild and I love that fairy tale stuff but sometimes it just does not work out.  But don’t get me wrong I am a major fan of the ladies.  From the day the hormones started raging I always had the one dream of that magical first kiss.  I am going to share with you guys the story of an average Joe just trying to get some but there are definitely bumps in the road.  There is a couple women I encountered here and this is what happened

Scene 2- P- Girl #1

Jon-You never forget the first girl you like; no matter how old you are I remember mine her name is P.  P looked like the girl next door who was as sweet as pie.  P was tall and skinny and blonde.  I met P in Hebrew school when I was just a lad and then our friendship blossomed to where we had play dates almost every week doing any crazy thing.  P and I always hung out and we were best friends from Hebrew school along with my friend G.  G was one of my best friends and he was a chick magnet he got mad girls at Jewish sleep away camp because everybody was mad Horney over there and that just was not my style.  I remember that I used to tell everyone that I was friends with one of the prettiest girls in the world and I felt so cool.  Unfortunately as we got older and my hormones exceeded I started to like P in a totally different way.  When we hit that bar Mitzvah scene I always wanted to slow dance with P because back then in middle schoolers eye slow dancing with someone is pretty much being with that person.  So I always just went out on the floor and danced crazy by myself with no P.  The summer before high school, me and P went on vacation time with our whole families.  She always said her back hurt and I would give her massages for hours and I just thought to myself why can’t you just turn around kiss me because I am to scared too.  We spent every second together and I could never keep my eyes off of her.  But nothing happened and as she got more popular and became noticed by other guys the friendship went out the window and me and G were thrown away for her cool older men.  I was sad but I got over it.  So P was the first girl but many others will come into play don’t you worry.

Scene 3- D Girl #2

Jon- Being a freshman guy in high school blows!  You went from being the big fish to the little tadpole and most of all no high school girl wants a piece of the freshman boy.  So freshman year went kind of slow with no action for me but I just focused on school and sports so it was ok.  But when sophomore year came around I wanted to get into the game and that’s when I met D.  So I started hanging out with more of a mixed group with guys and girls who included my neighbor K, my old friend S, and P along with D.  At this time K started dating SSO and we would all go to places together trying to get them too together and my eye started to shift towards D and her eyes shifted towards me.  D was the first girl I ever held hands with it was during shark tale at the local mall and I felt like the biggest pimp in the entire world.  I remember running into her at places like the mall and yelling for my dad to move away so I can talk to her and it felt like magic.  This was during sweet 16 seasons but I always so nervous and could never ask her to slow dance and I just had no confidence.  I felt like I did not have the balls to do this.  I started asking around and I found out that she was into me so I knew I had to make my move and I planned a hang at my house with K, SSO and D.  So K and SSO went together and I walked around with D.  We walked around the neighborhood and I held her hand and I knew that night I was going to get my first kiss.  So we went in K’s backyard and sat down and we were not talking just staring into each other’s eyes.  But instead of just going in for the kiss I asked “D can I kiss you?”  Well she said NO.  I felt like I got kicked in the nuts by a professional soccer player.  We went inside and our friendship was never the same we began to hate each other and our friendship has never recovered.  Well that’s strike two.

 

Scene 4- L Girl #3

Jon- There is always that one girl who you believe is perfect for you.  She is smart, funny, and beautiful.  L was that girl for me.  I actually met her at D’s sweet sixteen and even though I was into D at the time, L made my heart stop because she was beautiful and so funny.  This was at the end of sophomore year and when things fell through with D I went on to L.  Me and L always talked online and flirted like crazy unfortunately we did not get to see each other that much but one day over the summer I got to hang with her once along with K and we watched Monsters INC and I had so much fun.  I began to really like her but unfortunately in the fall we had no classes with her but L came to my 16^th b day party at my house and for a few min we just walked around my backyard kicking a soccer ball and I should have asked her right there to plant a big fat one on my lips because who can deny a guy a kiss on his birthday.  But of course I did not.  A week later online I told L that I liked her a lot and I thought we were perfect for each other.  I heard the usual story “I think we would be better as friends”.  It hurt a lot and my confidence was shot because I was so fond of this girl.  I only told a few people about this and months went by without me and L talking again but eventually we started chatting again by the middle of junior year.  One day L and her friend and S invited me to see a movie with them along with JWL at the mall.  I left my friends house and made a lie and said I had to go home.   It started it out great because I thought she liked me but it did not go as planned b/c while we were eating dinner her and S were talking about all the “hot guys” around us and it made me feel like crap.  We saw Jumper and I sat next to her but no handholding went on or anything else.  After that night I started to get into L again.  Even though she did not have a date for the junior prom I was too nervous to ask her and I did not so I spent prom playing super smash bros with the boys.  I again talked to her over the rest of junior year and summer.  I was so excited at the beginning of senior because she was in my science class but we still only talked online and only a little flirting in class.  But I decided it was the right time to tell L again that I wanted to take our friendship to the next level and along with my friend LC(who will be back in the story later) I wrote her love letter and sent it to her over face book and I poured my heart and soul into it.  She did not answer for days and I waited on pins and needles for her response so I instant messaged her and asked if she got my note.  I just asked for one chance, one date, and one opportunity for me to prove myself as the perfect person for her.  We talked for hours on how we could never work and that we should only be friends.  I never cried so much in my entire life.  I had to pretend that I hurt my leg when my mother came home so she did not think I was crying over a girl.  She never said why she would not try it out with me until hours later on the next day when she said “you are just a goof and not boyfriend material”.  That hurt more than anything anybody has ever said to me.  Going to school the next week was impossible for me I was always so sad.  Every so often I still think of L but throughout the year I told people about what happened after one of my friends wanted to ask her out and eventually a close friend of mine went to prom with her but he does not know what happened between us.  That was strike 3 and I was out for the count but I got some extra chances.

Scene 5- LC Girl # 4

Jon- At my high school I knew almost everybody by name and face but there is a select few who I did not know.  At the beginning of junior year I had a physics class at the end of the day and I dreaded it but when I got there I saw this girl and I was shocked because she was so cute and I had never seen her before.  LC is her name and right away I was attracted to her.  I began to talk to LC on a regular basis because we had physics and gym together all day.  After only a month or two we became very close and one night I told her about my parents separating and she said her parents have been divorced for years.  I knew right then and there this girl is special.  Unfortunately for me LC had a serious boyfriend and I never had a shot with her so instead I tried to make her days great by either making or her laugh or just being there for her when she needed a shoulder to lean on.  LC and I always talked about other possible girls for me but I always had a thing for her even though she was occupied.  Everyone knew it too.  All the guys in my class would always say you like the “C Girls”.  Her cousin as also in the class and we flirted but I always was into my LC.  LC was always there for me when I was upset and I respected that so much.  Junior year went quickly and after all the regents ended LC had a sweet sixteen party at her friend’s house.  I was so nervous to go because I did not know any of her friends except a few.  When she got there I gave her a huge hug and I met her mom who knew everything about me from LC.  The party was fun but a little awkward because I did not bring my bathing suit for a swimming party but then the candle lighting ceremony began and my life changed forever.  All her known best friends got a candle and then I heard “You call me laureli, l cell, and laur,”.  I was to my friend “holy s**t, that’s for me”.  He knew I was going to get a candle and I was completely surprised.  After the sweet poem, I stood up and helped her light the candle and took the picture.  I knew right there that I had a best friend for life.  After the party, I went over to her house for the first of many times and we just hung out, played Mario Kart, and took pictures.  I had a blast.  After this hangout, we hung regularly at least 2 or 3 times a month on Friday nights usually.   When senior year started as stated earlier I began to have feelings for L again and that is when I wrote a massive love letter to L with LC’s help.  LC wrote it beautifully and perfected it.  After the drama occurred LC was one of the first people I told about the rejection and she spent a lot of time consoling me and I always respected it.  I became involved with the LC family because LC’s little brother CC was on my hockey team so I saw him and the mom every week.  I began to fall for her.  I always just wanted to tell you LC”We are perfect for each other, I love you.”  It pained me to hear about stuff her and her boyfriend did but I listened and just tried to not think about it.  LC and I talked about everything and knew everything about each other.  She was the first person I told that I have never kissed a girl.  I always just made up random girls up so that I would look cool in front of my friends.  LC and I agreed that I would be her maid of honor and she would be my best man.  I loved her but I just could not tell her because I did not want to ruin the relationship but one day it just slipped out.  We were just talking and she said “I know you are hiding something from me” and I said “I can’t tell you”.  But I did and I don’t know if I regret it or not but she was completely surprised.  I poured out my heart again and I was destroyed because I thought this was the end of our friendship and I could not be with the girl of my dreams.  After that night we did not talk for months but eventually we worked everything out and now we are back as best friends again.  LC was not my first kiss but part of me believes that she is my soul mate and even though she has a boyfriend and she is a year younger than me that in the future I know I will be with this girl.  Strike four but this is where things get interesting.

Scene 5- End of senior year (KK, CS, KS)

Jon- I did not go to my junior prom, so I thought in my mind that I should go to senior prom.  At first I had no idea to ask because I wanted to go with somebody who was more than a friend so maybe something magical could happen at the prom.  At the beginning of the year, I planned on asking L but as you know that was not an option.  On New Year’s Eve SP had a party and KK was there.  KK and I never had a class together but whenever we are at the same sweet sixteen we would always hang out and are very close.  This night was not different.  Throughout the night KK and I hung out and we both stayed up the entire night and we just talked.  After that night KK and I went out with our group of friends a couple times and then I think I found my prom date.  It was around February when I asked after my friend G and I talked about prom one night at a New Jersey nets game.  Many times after this I would go to KK’s lunch spot where some of my other friends sat and just talked to her.  But unfortunately I did not have that attraction for KK like I had for some of the past girls.  KK was nice and smart but she was not for me.  By the beginning of June, I was not very excited about prom and I wanted a girl badly.  CS was in my SAT prep class in junior year and I thought she was so beautiful and I wanted to figure out a way to meet her.  Eventually my friend MS set up a meeting with me CS, him, and GD but CS was not aware it was a setup.  While K, SP, D, and PZ were working on an econ project I asked them a question which girl do you think I should go after KK, CS, or KS.  KK was my prom date, CS was the girl I was going to get set up with, and KS a junior who I thought was gorgeous but never talked to before.  Everyone either picked KK or CS because I never met KS.  For my senior cut day I went to a Boston Red Sox game with my friends G and AL.  We left on Friday and I told them that I needed to be home on Saturday because I had my set up with CS.  I was so nervous and excited.  Throughout the trip I always asked them for advice especially before I went to sleep because it was just me and AL in the basement of G’s aunt’s house.  I got home Saturday and I found out that the set up changed to next week and I was heartbroken.  I was so excited and I could not wait until next week but I did.  The set up just started out awkward because when I got there it ended up being me, CS, CS’s mom, and GD’s mom just talking and I was so nervous.  But eventually me, MS, CS, and GD went into her room and just talked and hung out for a little.  It was always a little awkward because I had not talked to CS in months but even though it was a little strange I got CS’s number before we left.  I was so happy and after this hang me and MS went to one of our friend’s birthday parties.  I told most of my friends about the number retrieval and I started to text CS just random stuff.  All the usual people were at this party but also a random guest was there KS.  I sat down and started talking to the gang and eventually I talked about my favorite candy Sweetarts and then KS said “Sweetarts are my favorite candy”.  I was shocked that somebody else also liked them and also she liked all the same restaurants I did.  As we started to watch a movie I was texting CS and I was on the floor and on the couch above me was KS and the birthday man who was all over KS.  I did not mind because I was into CS at the moment.  The movie stopped and I went to the kitchen table and I started to talk to KS and a couple of my other friends and KS was smiling and laughing the whole time.  All the guys went downstairs and began to play my favorite video game MOH but I just could not leave the table because I was having a great time just talking to KS.  I kept joking around with her because the night before for the senior scavenger hunt I saw her give another girl a peck because they needed two junior girls to kiss.  I had such a good time at this party.  After this night I started to text CS every other day and also I started to joke around with KS at her locker every day.  One day during the week KS added me as a friend on Facebook and eventually KS messaged me about her locker on Friday and we ended up talking for about two hours before a football game with my friends.  I now had two girls that I was into.   That night my friend JK had a pool party after we had a hockey game.  But on the ride to the party some of my friends hot boxed in the care and while they were under the influence I told them about the two girls and I asked them which one was for me.  When we got to the party I found out that KS asked the kid who had the party last week if I was single.  I was so happy but so confused.  I did not know which one I should go after.  Throughout the night I was so confused and was upset about all of this happening at once so my good friends R and Al had a sleep over so they could help me decide on a girl.  After I showed them the messages both of them agreed KS was the one for me.  The next day my team had a big hockey win against the second best team in the league and when UI got home KS and I talked for hours on the computer and this continued until I got to my friends house where he brought out a laptop so we can chat.  That night we were planning on seeing a movie called The Hangover and then KS said “what are you doing tonight “and I took that and asked her to come to the movies with me.  After asking her parents she could come on one condition, if her friend could come also because they were hanging out.  This friend who I named “C**k Block” after some of her actions.  My friends and I were so excited and I had a plan for the night and it entailed three things: 1) Hold hands at the movie, 2) Walk her to her door, and 3) KISS HER.  My friend CP drove me, JK, and R in his van and we had to pick up KS and her friend.  I dressed in my only polo and only pair of cargo shorts for her.  I have never dressed that nice for a regular event.  When we picked her up, I was in awe of how beautiful she looked and it seemed that her mom was very nervous at the fact that she was going to the movies with me but f**k it.  I was invincible that night.  Unfortunately C**k Block sat with KS so I could not sit with her but we still talked the whole ride and when we got to the movies, it was so cute how nervous that she was because she was not old enough to see a r rated movie.  For a moment we escaped the rest of the group, and we walked to the snack bar and I bought us some Sweetarts which was the thing that connected us in the beginning.  When we finally entered the movie I sat down next to KS and we started to talk and before the previews started she invited me to a party she was having the following Friday and I knew that was a good sign.  Right before I could make a move, C**k Block had to get popcorn and needed KS to come with her so I was stopped right in my tracks.  But when she got back I asked “can I hold your hand” and she said “YES”.  My hands were so sweaty partly because I have sweaty hands and partly because I was on a date with a bombshell!  One of my favorite parts of the night is when she said I think this way is better and instead of just holding hands, we interlocked our fingers and it felt amazing.  Throughout the entire movie we just talked and no matter what she said it sounded great to me.  In the middle of the movie, C**k Block struck again because she had to go to the bathroom and KS had to come with her.  When she left all my friends were patting me on the back because they saw what was going on.  When she got back we started to hold hands again and she told me how she did a charity swim for her father who has MS and everything was going perfect.  Objective #1 of my plan was complete but numbers two and three were in jeopardy because when the movie ended and we got into the car to leave, C**k Block wanted to be dropped off at KS’s house.  I told my friends that she had to be dropped off at her house at all costs so my friends stepped up big time and kept telling her that it was no problem to drop her home at her house.  Finally as we got close to her house, she agreed.  When we finally dropped her off, I jumped into the back seat so I could be next to KS.  We talked and then we approached her development and I started shaking.  When we stopped, I told her I would walk her to the door and I opened the door and took a huge breath and then we walked to her door and we said how much fun we had and other cute talk.  When we she said this is my house, we both leaned in at the same time and we kissed!  It was about a two second lip lock but to me it was the best kiss in the world.  As I walked back to the car, I held my hands up and the car went nuts.  Right when I got in, they just kept going nuts and my friend G was on the phone and I was in  disbelief and I gave him a  full play by play.  That night I called my neighbor K and told her what happened.  Even the next day at camp orientation, I told all the mommy counselors about the kiss and at a graduation party that afternoon, everyone was talking about it and said we hooked up which was not true and got me a little ticked off but I still felt great. Unfortunately KS was going to prom with a kid on my hockey team so the reason for her Friday night party was for them to meet and at the end of the week C**k Block gave me a set of rules of how to act that night including that me and KS were just friends and that we could only hang out 25% of the night.  I kid you not.  During the week I sat with KS one day and she sat with me one day.  She told me that she wanted to take things slow and that made me upset but I understood because I really wanted this to work.  On the night of the party her prom date and I won a huge hockey game in overtime and after that my friend CP picked me up and took me to the party.  It was a little awkward but we took pictures together and I hung out with her prom date, some of her friends, and KS.  At the end of the party me and KS were next to each other and she taught me how to make smiley faces during text messages and as she was doing this the Mets lost to the Yankees on a Luis Castillo dropped pop up.  Everyone was in disbelief after this happened and almost everyone left the party except me and CP, so we ended up talking to KS, her brother, and her parents for around one and a half hours.  I kept telling them how I was going to steal KS for a song at prom and her mom got pretty upset but I did not care because during the whole talk I and KS were making cute faces at each other.  When we left KS only could hug me because the parental units were around but overall it was a successful night.  I was grateful that my pal CP hung in there with me.  That weekend I was starting to get ready for prom and I wanted to go with KS so badly because I just thought she was amazing and I was so nervous that she would hook up with her date.  My prom was that Friday and right before I left I told KS “I bet you look so beautiful and I will see you there”.  I dressed up and I went to take so many pictures but the whole time, I was thinking about KS.  After our party bus got lost, we finally got to the prom and I had a really awkward encounter with one of my friends who asked me when I was with KK if “I was going to dance with KS”.  That just started the awkward prom night with me and my date.  We really did not talk and when we finally went on the dance floor we went to the floor and while I was performing my dice move KS and her date saw me and he said hi and me and KS just locked eyes.  After a few minutes, KS’s date went back to his table and I went over to KS and we started holding hands and dancing.  It felt amazing and after two minutes she told me “Jon you got to get out of here, he is going to come back soon” and I said “fine but first…”  I put my hand on my lips and KS kissed me.  I felt like a pimp and I told all my friends “me and KS just kissed “.  Before that moment I was having a miserable time at my prom but that changed everything.  Then the DJ said “Everybody go back to your tables for dinner” and then the DJ put on a slow song and this became the most amazing moment of my entire life.  I went to sit down and right as we started eating KS came over and asked me to dance.  I ran out there and we got on the floor I put my hands on her sides and she put her hands on my back.  I felt amazing; I told KS “You look so beautiful tonight and you made my prom amazing”.  After a few more seconds of talking we just stared to hook up right there on the dance floor.  My first hook up was at my senior prom, with a beautiful girl who was not even my date.  We hooked up for about a minute when we took a little break and then we just stared at each other and then we began to hook up for another minute.  I felt like I was out there for hours, It was the best thing ever.  When the song ended we went back to our tables and I found my group of friends and told them that we just hooked up.  It felt like I told the whole prom about my hook up.  About an hour later we danced for another few minutes, holding hands, and I could not keep my eyes off this angel.  She left and I got a final kiss on the lips and then my prom was complete.  The rest of the night I was off the wall and in the car ride home I just felt like I had a perfect night.  So my senior prom turned out a lot better than I expected and my first hook up was unbelievable.  A week later she ended everything we had and broke my heart on my graduation day.  A few days later one of my friends was all over her (one who originally was all over her) hooked up with her and I was never that sad in my entire life.  The next day we had a huge fight and we have not talked since.  Even though she broke my heart, I miss her so much and I will never forget her forever because she was my first kiss.  I guess the wait was worth it!