i forgive you but i dont understand

feelings all jumbled not sure how it turned out

you said youd always be there

that you would never leave

"we are family" you repeated

now i sit here and grieve

 

i know i should be thankful

thankful it wasnt death that made you go

but i cant help but feel some pain

all is changing like everything i know

 

you said it wasnt my fault

but i cant help but disagree

maybe if i would have behaved better

or maybe if there hadnt been a me

 

they say we are better off

but they dont know our past

we've had our bad times and our good

but family is supposed to last

 

i just dont see what you see in her

what she has that we dont

she doesnt know you like we do

and to be honest she wont

 

i know i should try to let go

but to be honest it is rough

i try my best not to cry

but its becoming hard to be tough

 

i thought of you today

as we spent our first christmas apart

tears flooded my eyes

and memories tore up my broken heart

 

i dont think i'll ever forget you

but i am trying to let go

you've been my dad

so i thought id let you know.

 

you promised to be here

but i forgive you now

i understand you know longer want us

i guess i just didnt see how.

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Alicia Schroeder]

Very raw peice, streat from the core, greatly written.

[Cassandra D.]

this was pretty good and beautiful.

[Sports Girl]

Beautiful poem but also heart wrenching. I can relate to this in a sense and it's hard to write these kinds of things down. Nice job

[MissWordSmith]

Raw, untouched emotion. I can relate to this on some level. I like that you had the strength to write it down. You're one step closer to understanding what it means to you. This was so personal and touching. It really was a pure, innocence learning life like it never imagined. Sometimes I think that to understand someone else we must first understand ourselves. Understanding is not supposed to bring about agreement. Just understanding.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

Your honesty and courage are remarkable here.
The strength it takes to face these words will
give you the ability to conquer anything.

The words were very moving.

[Beuastykg]

Very good, and I can relate. All the words you wrote were my very own feelings, so I thank you for that. Keep up the good work, keep the true, exposed, unedited emotion. It is what makes your words powerful.

[Matt Shriver]

This was so good. Raw emotion. It also flowed quite well.