Every night he went to bed, he made the same wish. That
everything would be different the next day. And every morning, when he woke up,
he knew that, yet another day, his wish hadn't come true. The same breakfast,
the same ride to school, the same fixed smile on his face. And then the iron
door would close firmly behind him. The same yelling, pushing, name calling.
The same humiliation as any other day.
Nothing ever changed.
The only thing different, the only thing he looked forward to, was the drops of
blood. The drops of his blood. The shape and size as they oozed from the cut,
small yet deep enough, carefully carved on his upper thigh or arm. Each drop
different. Never the same. And every night the same wish. That everything would
be different the next day.
Spoke to a fella at work about " cutting" as his arms are covered in scars. He said after the death of his baby son it was a easier form of release than sitting talking to folk he didn't know. So sad.
Hope you are well Moneypenny :)
Posted 6 Years Ago
6 Years Ago
Such a sad story! Physical pain to numb the emotional one! So sorry for your colleague and his loss... read moreSuch a sad story! Physical pain to numb the emotional one! So sorry for your colleague and his loss. Thanks for reading. All is well here in sunny, boiling hot, Greece! Hope all is well with you too!
Self harm to express the built up off emotional pain that is locked up inside. And the release with the physical cut to let it out. That hounds the spirt and the soul daily. The wounds heals in time but the spirt and soul is affect forever. But you can overcome and be strong. Poetry is a wonderful way to heal the wounds and get it out without self harming.
Posted 6 Years Ago
6 Years Ago
Lovely and insightful review!Thank you!I appreciate it!
An interesting take on a subject that is so very often completely misunderstood and contrary to that old classic 'the first cut is usually not the deepest'.... Neville
Posted 6 Years Ago
6 Years Ago
Thank you for reading and the interesting comment!
A sad story about self infliction.well written and well detailed.i hope this isn't from.personal history
Posted 6 Years Ago
6 Years Ago
Not from personal history,although I think that we all tend to "hurt" ourselves in some way,physica.. read moreNot from personal history,although I think that we all tend to "hurt" ourselves in some way,physical or emotional,until we realize that nothing ever changes unless we change it ourself!Thank you for reading and the comment!
I have known cutters. Hide their need well. To need blood to feel alive. A dangerous place to be . A realistic story written my friend. Thank you for sharing realistic story of many.
Coyote
Posted 6 Years Ago
6 Years Ago
Thank you for reading and the encouraging comment!I appreciate it!Unfortunately self-inflicted pain .. read moreThank you for reading and the encouraging comment!I appreciate it!Unfortunately self-inflicted pain is the reality of many as you pointed out.Sad but true.
Your character is a troubled soul. There are many like him, who can only find some release for their pain through cutting. A young person, who needs help and eventually is likely to come through the other side. Being an adolescent these days is full of pressures and must suck. Pleased I didn't have to go through all that. An interesting read, because I know young people in that situation and I have seen them come through it. Interesting to read and well written.
Thank you for your thoughtful review!Sadly,people tend to hurt themselves physically or emotionally... read moreThank you for your thoughtful review!Sadly,people tend to hurt themselves physically or emotionally.One can only hope everyone comes through it and to the bright side!
6 Years Ago
Yes indeed.
6 Years Ago
I've come back to read this a second time. Sad situation many young people find themselves in, to fi.. read moreI've come back to read this a second time. Sad situation many young people find themselves in, to find a small release this way.
Very good. I wish it was a little easier to empathize with your character. Even though this is something that I have gone through in some capacity, I still found it difficult to empathize, possibly because of the short length. After all, there's only so much character development you can achieve in this length of story. I can only imagine that it would be even more difficult for someone without those experiences to do the same. Overall, though, I enjoyed it.