Affliction (Collab with YumnaKay)

Affliction

I often ask myself why I'm like this...

Why can I not look normal?

Why can't I be treated the same way as others?

Every time I go out, I feel eyes peering right at me.

I hear people say stuff about me;

that I was burnt alive and somehow survived...

but that is nowhere near the truth.

I have a syndrome, which causes all these problems.

These scars however I want to forget,

brought anew with the 'normal people's' piercing looks.

And I'm forced to bow my head and walk in silence.

Every time I go out, my ears ring with insulting comments.

I look back at my parents and see 

the helplessness in their eyes; just unbearable.

Even they can't just do anything about it 'cause

it's inevitable the way I'm treated because of what I have.

And are these problems the only thing people will discuss about me?

Not about the times when I made a human-like smile?

Or when someone didn't clean their hand

with their shirt after shaking mine?

Will I have to always endure these taunting, stinging remarks?

Don't they see the tears just around the corners of my eyes

ready to flow, but I wish I was strong,

and didn't let the harsh words get to me.

With every single passing moment I'm forced 

to acknowledge how useless I am.

That I really am just an unworthy sight, not to be seen;

wishing that I was never born this way...

Will this depression and loneliness go on forever? 

Will this syndrome cost me my life? 

Well, I hope it does... 'cause, other than my family, 

no one will give a f*** about me...

Author's Note

About Nager syndrome which affects the development of face, hands and arms...

Reviews

[Great Aunt Astri]

Nager syndrome. It must be quite hard to live with. But I think your expressive, but controlled poem speaks for many others with other unfortunate conditions too. I think you have got a lot going for you. Lets hope it is enough to stop you form 'doing' the last stanza! But it made a very moving poem. Well done, you.

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much! :

[Cœur]

I once read a book about a man with Nager Syndrome, this poem reminds me of the struggle he went through in life. Beautiful poem, great job.

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Coeur! :)

[Island Hippy]

Aloha, a very powerful offering of words highlighting a condition I had not known before reading this. "Normal" is such an affliction that it casts us all into categories. You have thrown light on the attitudes of the masses and the learned behaviours we inherit "just because" it is an old saying but beauty truely is only skin deep, the many opportunities to be educated/enlightened by such are ample and the real gifts are understanding, grace, humility and gratitude .... all the things unseen all the things that form character for the onlookers! The realizations highlighted are so sad if only one could come to a deeper realization they have more to offer than what they can see right now. Mahalo to each of you. Izzy

[Mr.Writer]

Very true, if only we see that life has more for us in store, but some wounds may never heal in our lives, so we have to try to forget them and try to be happy :)
Thank you so much for reviewing! :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I believe depression killed more people than we know. My younger brothers one year apart. They hung themselves. Couldn't face life and left great sadness behind.
"Will this depression and loneliness go on forever?
Will this disorder cost me my life?
Well, I hope it does... 'cause, other than my family,
no one will give a f*** about me..."
I learn because of my brothers. I listen and I pay attention. Even with anger near. The above lines. A scary place to know. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry.
Coyote

[Mr.Writer]

Oh, I'm really sorry to hear that Coyote... Depression is a powerful thing and everyone has it at a point, and it can go from mild to worse, or even worse to mild, depending on the situation.
Thank you so much for reviewing :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome my friend.