Affliction (Collab with YumnaKay)

Affliction

I often ask myself why I'm like this...

Why can I not look normal?

Why can't I be treated the same way as others?

Every time I go out, I feel eyes peering right at me.

I hear people say stuff about me;

that I was burnt alive and somehow survived...

but that is nowhere near the truth.

I have a syndrome, which causes all these problems.

These scars however I want to forget,

brought anew with the 'normal people's' piercing looks.

And I'm forced to bow my head and walk in silence.

Every time I go out, my ears ring with insulting comments.

I look back at my parents and see 

the helplessness in their eyes; just unbearable.

Even they can't just do anything about it 'cause

it's inevitable the way I'm treated because of what I have.

And are these problems the only thing people will discuss about me?

Not about the times when I made a human-like smile?

Or when someone didn't clean their hand

with their shirt after shaking mine?

Will I have to always endure these taunting, stinging remarks?

Don't they see the tears just around the corners of my eyes

ready to flow, but I wish I was strong,

and didn't let the harsh words get to me.

With every single passing moment I'm forced 

to acknowledge how useless I am.

That I really am just an unworthy sight, not to be seen;

wishing that I was never born this way...

Will this depression and loneliness go on forever? 

Will this syndrome cost me my life? 

Well, I hope it does... 'cause, other than my family, 

no one will give a f*** about me...

Author's Note

About Nager syndrome which affects the development of face, hands and arms...

Reviews

[Great Aunt Astri]

Nager syndrome. It must be quite hard to live with. But I think your expressive, but controlled poem speaks for many others with other unfortunate conditions too. I think you have got a lot going for you. Lets hope it is enough to stop you form 'doing' the last stanza! But it made a very moving poem. Well done, you.

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much! :

[Kittenincake]

"Don't they see the tears just around the corners of my eyes"

Relatable, I've often felt this way, wondering if another person out there cares or understands.

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you! :) Yeah, we tried to relate it to peoples experiences in the past and even present :)

[Kesha]

You 2 did such a wonderful job on writing a collab together! It flowed together seamlessly nice job you guys! :)

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Kesha!! :)

[apennylate]

I had no idea... Strong message, and even stronger portrayal of sickening decay... Could barely slog through each line... Very heavy, very succinctly, almost vapidly worded... Which conveys a shadow of the hopelessness, restlessness, and absolute soul-breaking dejection that must be felt living with such a malady of the flesh... People will always give a f**k, and family is thicker than blood... Heh, absolute beauty of a collab'... Very emotionally penned...

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Silente! :)

[apennylate]

You are ever so welcome...!

[Farhan Shaikh]

applause 👏 for you Shaan.
You fitted the emotions in those words very well.
That makes the poem excellent

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Farhan! Yumna and I really appreciate it

[CAPOLAVORO]

Very nicely written. It is not easy to do such lines with powerful emotions. I like how you open the eyes of the readers into a whole new set of empathy towards this kind of disorder. Well done you two! :)

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Capolavoro!

[MsJewel]

A seamless collab - you two write so well together. Your words are powerful and heartfelt. Well done :) Julie

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Ms. Jewel! We really appreciate it

[Zoya]

Yeah, this is depressing...but somehow, it is also giving all those people out there courage to fight back, stay strong, even in these difficult times...very well written!

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Zoe! :)

[Zoya]

No problem

[Surya]

That's depressed, but never feel such...
Be happy everything gonna be fine...
I liked it Shaan...:)

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you so much Surya! Yumna and I really appreciate it

[Surya]

My pleasure...!!!!

[Hope]

So touching....
I can feel the depression the person faces just by reading the poem......
Great work!

[Mr.Writer]

Thank you Naat! :)

[Hope]

My pleasure......