Out of The Past

This isn't going to last if you can't stay out of my past
Let it be and set me free
From these shackles I wear, and the pain that I bear
I'm not proud of the things that I've done
And instead of two together, it feels like we're one on one
We've become two seperate people, you and me
Instead of one being, one body in harmony
I know it upsets you, but I don't understand
I didn't come here to hurt you, that part wasn't planned
You know I don't have the cleanest past history
And the reasons I did some of those things is a mystery
I have been searching my whole life through
For someone to love me, and God gave me you
I thought I had felt love, sometime in the past
I thought it was O.K. when they moved too fast
"But, I love you!" was something that they'd often say
With no real meaning behind it, they just wanted laid
I always concealed all the pain and the hurt
I "got what I deserved" for being a flirt
Apparently, I brought it all on myself
At least, that's what he said the night my virginity was unshelved
This all runs rampant within my head
You have no idea how often I wish I were dead
Instead of no, I said yes a few times too many
I've made myself feel like the worth of a penny
But, I'm with YOU now, and I want to move on
Let's start fresh and new,another day has dawned.

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[soulsearching]

This is so real and from the heart, I wish I had done things a lot different in my past, the way I've treated women over the years and so on./ I continue to teach my son to respect women on a higher level than I did.. Thanks for sharing this is a great poem.
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