Laughter is the Best Medicine

Have you ever had a day or a week, where you needed a laugh more than anything in the world? Not one because people feel they need to make you laugh but a real, catch me off guard, deep in the inside, gut shattering laugh. I find myself laughing a lot but they don't feel real. I feel like I am on stage and my job is to smile and to entertain and take care of all around me. Deep inside I feel empty, lost, a bit angry and but most importantly there is definitely no laughter...I have people all around me that love me and will protect me from anything with their very lives even. Yet I feel sad. So I sit and ponder the reason or reasons for this as I wait for the laughter to come along ...

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I like the way you dissect a simple thing like laughter, thoughtfully & honestly showing us all the messy guts of the deal, not just everything being all jolly on the surface. You describe how I used to feel most of my early life, not really feeling a good belly laugh about anything, even when watching comedy. Nowadays, the simplest things make me laugh like crazy all thru-out my days. One's quality of laughter is an indicator of one's inner contentedness, I think. So I understand your closing comments about feeling sad, despite the occasional superficial laughter here & there.

[Samuel Dickens]

I don't think it's entirely my fault, but I do end up in bad moods quite a bit. All those irritations and annoyances that life can throw at us, you know. If lucky, something might happen that makes me laugh and when it does, it can kick my bad mood right out the door. May you find laughter in abundance.