love pain masochist

love comes in different forms my is pain.

this is the only love i have known. not having you. wanting you, needing you,not having you, it hurts. makes me tears to sleep. my sorrow is my joyous feeling of you. i see your happiness with others and it hurts me to joys; i love it. these love pains are what i have known of love; 17 years of love pains and they just keep getting better and better; and better. the happier you are, the more love pains i have, sadness is my new happiness. i'am a masochist!! i love these love pains with all my heart and more.

Author's Note

to each their own. i love these love pains, embarrassment, being forgotten, being unwanted, yet thought of once in a blue moon. this is all i know of love, the last woman, if you can call her that, i was with left dock and jumped on another boat. yet she never knew, i never hinted, of these love pains i had for the other. it would be my dream come true if she is to come to me wanting to be with me. if she does, dreams really do come true, yet i do not allure her im an ugly, short, funny, Caribbean 90 year old man in the body of a 30 year old boy.

Reviews

[Jamestown]

Well penned!
I can totally understand these words you wrote and I completely agree
that people do deal with love pains totally different and yours seem to
be humble and upright:) Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!