Resolve

This light; this dying star that wails in pain

I see it with my own eyes,

Like watching my own ink fade,

It drifts in the wind until it dies.

The same goes for my sanity

I could have done everything, but not now,

Not when you're gone

To break the cycle, I don't know how.

The wisest, the strongest, yet still it falls.

I used to think maybe I could have done better

But now I know you're the best of me

And I slip and stumble with every letter

It's been a long, lonesome road,

But I will walk no matter how far

Because you're going anyway, and I will be alone

Just know you're in my mind no matter where you are

I beg for rest, I plead for respite;

But the Lord has other things planned

Never have I thought,

That I'd still long to hold your hand

And so I walk with blood on my knees

Still thinking, seeking what I found in you,

To wander and be lost in your eyes again,

To feel your warmth; what am I supposed to do?

I thirst, and the road stretches even farther,

Though I'm drunk in my own madness and dread,

But one day maybe I'll find you again.

I'd rather lose myself to you instead.