If I Am Disgusted

I go to take one and end up having eight

I haven't slept for days nor have I ate

And I'm awake until it's half-past three

Don't know what it is, but it's bad for me

I'm half asleep until I get another again

It doesn't matter how many or when

As long as I breathe, I want some more

Disgusted with pleasure, just like before

Is this supposed to be all I want?

If it even is, then why do I flaunt?

All of it, every last drop if I must

Doing all that I can to feed my lust!

Living a life with a twisted pleasure

This pain, disgust is what I treasure

So let the darkness flow in 'till I choke

Thirsty for more with a soul that is broke