Do you understand now?

lulu you are aggravating but still you're not stupid.

You are a dick.

You are selfish,

and needy to 

the point of agitation, prick.

You whine and cry,

"Oh life's not fair-

I hate my mom."

Don't we all at some point, oh my!

You are always angry,

and that'll eat you up inside.

Usually when it gets this bad,

you go hide.

Your anger is fueled,

by lack of control, 

selfishness and greed.

It's a volatile cocktail. 

It gets out of control a lot.

Especially when you don't get your way.

Then you ask stupid questions,

"Why doesn't anyone love me?"

Now don't stop, keep reading;

there's still more left to say.

Even if to this day,

you still don't deserve it.

If you're this awful,

why do I stick around?

Yes, I know what you are thinking;

I know you.

I do it because 

there are good moments too.

 I live for those moments,

I truly do.

 

Like how when you get nervous,

you run a hand through your hair,

c**k a half smile and your accent,

oh your accent! It changes octaves.

Or that playful smile you get,

the one that lights up your face;

makes your eyes dance

when you tell a joke.

How you ask stupid questions,

just to keep me paying attention.

Or even when you taunt and tease me 

to the point I want to slap you.

Even the moments where

you are being goofy 

 and distracting and wonderful;

I see you, as you are.

But the moments I live for overall...

the ones where you smile at me in awe 

and I catch that stupid smile.

those brighten my days and make me want to hug you.

There is always bad

with the good. 

You just gotta be able 

to see past both.

Why do I stay hmm lulu? 

Maybe you should explore that.

Think on it and tell me.

Why do I stay?