The Unopened Envelope

Okay, uh, the title.. is just sort of a metaphor.. like a message that never got through.. xD; Yeah. It's just something I wish I was brave enough to say to my friend. Too much drama going on..

I'm typing this and submitting it here because.. I know she goes on this site.. and if I'm lucky, she may find this.

Sorry to all the other people who might read this.. I'm just really sad right now.. xD;;

 

 

What is going on?

What is wrong with you?

You're acting like I, your supposed 'best friend', mean nothing to you.

I feel like I've been abandoned.

Is that jerk of a boyfriend that you have really that much more important than I am?

Why can't you see him for what he is instead of what you want him to be?

Why can't you just dump him so we can go back to being the crazy friends we once were?

I just feel so alone that it's almost unbearable.

You're changing. You're different. You aren't my best friend. You can't be her. She wouldn't do this to me.

She would never do this to me. She would have never gotten a boyfriend like him in the first place.

And if she had, she would have noticed its impact on our friendship and dumped him right away.

That isn't you, you aren't her.

What are you?

Certainly not the girl I used to call 'friend'.

I won't lie: I miss you. I miss her.

I want you back. I want to hang out and laugh like we used to,

but now whenever I laugh with you, it's forced.

I've been faking smiles for months, pretending nothing is wrong.

I just don't feel close to you anymore. He's replacing me.

It feels like I don't mean anything to you anymore, and it hurts.

You were the person I trusted the most in the entire world; you know that.

I'm beginning to lose my trust in you, beginning to lose faith that you'll just dump him, and we can go back to the way things once were.

I don't have a single happy memory in my life without you having been there.

If I lose you, I don't know what I'll do.

Please.

Please, just let go of him. Can't you see what this is doing to our friendship?

Am I the only one who feels like this?

 

I'm sorry.

That's enough.

I'll let you choose.

You can choose the middle school romance that probably won't last until the rest of the year,

or you can have the friend that would stay loyal to you for the rest of your life.

If you don't want to choose now, it's alright, I understand.

 

I just want you to know that the longer you two are together, the harder it becomes for me to fake that smile every day.

Author's Note

xD This is just me venting and hoping she finds it. I'll submit stories soon, trust me.

Reviews

[Bhavya Kaushik]

This is so beautifully sad! :(
I loved this piece of writing as it is so heart wrenching and touching !

You have not only written words here, but your pure emotions!

[Vesa Lee]

I know this is more than just a written piece, it's a declaration of a breaking heart. It's so real and vulnerable I can't help but ache myself. I know these sentiments, I've been in your place before; seeing all the wrong but not being able to put it right, I know how that can hurt. I hope your friend realizes the damage being done and changes.