Love, or Loss?

A poem to put my feelings on paper about one of my crushes

The small smile of the shy one.
The one you recognize as the family of your friend.
I doubt you will ever see me as any more than the daughter of your friend,
yet you are a million times more important to me.

The slight blush I try to hide,
hoping I don't give too much away.
I wish I could tell you,
but what would the others say?

My dreams twist around the debate if I should spill out my confession of love to you,
the fear of rejection pulling it back into a fantasy.
I was hurt before, will you hurt me too?
Those many sleeples nights, thinking
thinking of what to say and when.

From the voice of others, they tell me it may be dangerous,
your friends think of you more than what you believe.
Tearing apart your past relationships,
just to have them to yourself.
Should I risk it all?
Would you allow your "friend" to tear us apart if it did go through?
Would you let the sly hand of the snake coil around your judgement?

My friend believes I can do it, but can my fear change to her confidence?
My dreams are more like vivid canvases,
telling a great fairy-tale that would end happily ever after.
On more than one occasion, I have yearned for these to come true.

Yet, if this confession falls though,
and you do not feel the same,
what would happen?
Our lives are so intertwined,
you being a good friend of my father,
the thickness of the air would increase tenfold,
or would you just stop talking to us in general?

These fears, these feelings,
they are eating me out from the inside.
Why couldn't this be any easier?
It seems like running through a wall would be better accomplished.
Maybe I should just admire you from afar......
No, it would kill me if you would love another.
So why is this so hard?
Maybe it is because I have learned to trust no one,
or is it that I fear rejection?

Author's Note

Most of my poems do not follow a set rhythmic pattern, they are free verse

Reviews

[Sleeping Maiden]

Beautiful piece! I loved it. I love the imagery and the emotions are nicely done. I can relate to this poem. I love there's a story within the poem. It makes it deep and powerful. The feelings of rejection and afraid of telling someone how you feel is like my life. XD I've been so afraid of what they may say/react that I let my fear take in control sometimes. This poem takes me back to some of my past memories. Wonderful piece though! I enjoyed reading it.

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

Free verse is alright. As long as it makes sense. You can feel the emotions going through this. Very powerful. It is a strong write. Tells a story most can relate to in some form or fashion. Wanting someone, but you're scared to tell them. In fear they will reject you. Never a good feeling.