Somnipathy.

I am tired and asleep and I am wide awake

with everything to do and nothing to get me through until tomorrow.

I am falling and falling and falling asleep,

only to wake up to yesterday and the day before.

For the first time in my life, there is a wrong side of the bed

and no matter which side, that’s where I am always waking up:

taking up all the covers from my lover

and falling back asleep

until I am awoken by the alarm sounding on the night stand,

calling me to the next day and the day after.

Do I ever get a break?

Are we ever done with this cycle of waking and baking and doing it again?

Because I am tired and I can’t sleep tonight

At 4:24 in the a.m.

On the dot and on the double

class at 8 and s**t,

I’m just tired

with papers and places and s**t to do and people to see.

I feel myself exploding;

Breaking down like a ’92 le baron

and no matter how many times you fix me

I’m going to keep breaking down into insomnia or apnea or something where I just can’t f*****g fall asleep.

I’m wishing you were lying next to me

but I can’t get comfortable lately

and I can’t get whatever it is off my chest if I don’t know what it is.

Reviews

[Billy the Kid]

Lydia,

I like your style and content. I wasn't sure about the end, but maybe you meant to have a lover beside you earlier in the poem, yet missing the one you really love.

enjoyed,
Billy the Kid