Contradicting Myself.

I refuse to fall apart.

I wish my heart didn’t ache with pain
As the refrain of ‘our’ song echoes in my brain.
I am trying so hard to win,
Though I have lost time and time again.
Will it ever be enough?
I am tossing in my sleep,
You are turning in my dreams.
A life was planned for us,
Together - the bells and Boston
And a hope of forever.
But it’s over and that is
Something I can’t get my mind around
As my heart falls to the ground:
I cry out! I shout!
I am only a whisper, locked away
Behind lips that embrace a long-forgotten kiss.