I have fallen back to depression,
I have succumbed to your temptation.
I have abandoned God and faith and hope.
I lie about love.
I lie about life,
About my willingness to survive.
I cannot bear to look in the mirror -
The last truth left -
I am the only one who can see
The death behind my mask of breath.
I feign happiness,
I detest pleasure,
But no more than I detest myself.
What is it I have become?
I am nothing but a body,
My soul flees me when
I most need to feel.
I have not healed.
I lie naked in hatred for myself.
I am broken.
Do not reach for me,
I am already gone.